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Friday, January 13, 2006
~ 9:02 PM ~
I had just pass my 19th birthday approximately 2 months ago and realize time really flies day by day when you kept yourself occupy, and this Nov will be I'll 20 years old. Alas, so fast going to reach twenty already, and youth is about to end. Better cherish my youth quickly otherwise regret.
As regard 0f my personality, and 19th years of living in this world, i find my life isn't satisfying enough, my general knowledge and wisdom compare to others, i am still quite far back. I got to wake up to my sense and gain more, but always find myself are slow and blur. I learn new things a couple of tries and go through fear and nervous. I'm a emotional person, not to mention feelings are hurt quite easily when someone made a little harsh languages or negative remarks on me. Enlisted to NS very soon, heard from my army friend that in the camp, the people train you uses many type and forms of vuglarities so i got to learn to resist it. God, help me with us, I'll need to overcome.
For this past few years, I have been seeking for a permantle relationship with someone i find it satisfying to my taste and type but however to my disappointment, all girls who I apply with gentle and effort has entirely gone to vain. Someone teaches me, when you like somebody, you got to buy her gifts, date her out, buy her meals just like any common guy would do, indulge her, etc.. And I remember someone told me before, "If a girl doesn't like you, even though you buy her ring, diamond or even grab the moon for her, she will also not accept you. Or what can i say, she will show pity for your effort." Have been deeply depress over the past few years because of failing to woo a girl heart. Sometime I felt that why am I not appreciate by people especially girls, especially the want who I truly loves a lot. They simply rejects me and expect me to stop contacting them, go and choose another guy instead of me and make me feel jealous and envy. It is really true that "Ai ren shi tong kua, bei ren ai shi xin fu.". (Love someone is suffering while being love by someone is like striking the top prize of 4D.) People always say, time is not right yet and i think it is only half true, you woo girls and in the meantime hoping she will respond and which God tied a string to both of your heart. Sigh~, 10 girls i like, 10 girls all reject me. What and who else in this world still can accept me? If whoever shows respond in my effort for wooing you, I wouldn't mind spending time invest the feeling and get to know you more better, date you out before involves in a relationship. It is indeed that everyone needs a love from parents or gf/bf. And what I only get is love from parents and rejection from girls'. Yes, God loves me, but he can only love me through spiritually and not physically. What I can say, love through physical plays a major role. Now, I am considering to be a gay, somehow a little phobia of girls already. Don't think will any girl shows respond in my effort, not because I have no confidence in my doing, after plenty of attempt already, I really got nothing to comments about, really feel like yielding. Now what the future holds, I don't even dare imagine.

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Name: Xandrew Liang
Baptise Name: Jimmy
D.O.B: 16th Nov 1986
Age: 28 years
Height: '5 ft 7'
Weight: ???
Horoscope: Scorpio
From: Sengkang, Singapore
Occupation: Freelance
Religion: Christian
Mood: I'm more to a angel than to a devil but at times it's a vice versa
Character: I never been late
Hobby: I enjoy playing games, watched late night movies and hunt for supper
Interest: Travelling, played a sports which involved a ball, watched Movies and acting
Vehicle: I rides a bike
E-mail: Jamesliang86@hotmail.com
Favourite quote: Assumption is the cause of a mother screw up!

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