Thursday, October 11, 2007
~ 3:45 AM ~
I don't know whether to feel angry or sad? What exactly happen really pains me a lot, like a knife stabbing onto my heart. My mind went wild and a total lost of concentration to do anything.
My gf told me on sms that she was meeting her friend on Wednesday, I assume it was a girl so I don't bother to ask where she go and who she meet, the truth was only discovered a day later when she say she was meeting a guy on a one to one date at Movies. I don't know what exactly take place during the outing, I properly won't dare imagine the worst, expecting sitting in a dark place with only a dim light when everyone wasn't notice about you. Things can be happen, I totally couldn't accept the pain. Sigh, perhaps this make me another phobia of a relationship and wouldn't dare be serious again. I mean imagine someone you love deeply and all of a sudden he/she betrayed you by meeting an opposite gender for a one on one date. That's ridiculous! I'll been putting in all effort trying to make things right for her and this I get in return.
Well, maybe Mervin is right about this, all the girls are the same, betray, liar etc...
What should I do?
Be serious again and give her another chance?
Be less serious and hold grudges against her?
Break?
Dear, all I want to say is I'm truly hurt!
