Saturday, February 23, 2008
~ 3:54 PM ~
Last night, I went to watch "Ah Long Pte Ltd" with wendy at Orchard Cineleisure, the show was below average due to some lame jokes they create but there is one scene that really got me thinking which one of the actor in the show says, "before God entrust you into a mission, He want to test your endurance to determine how strong you are" it truly recall back the days when I was being confine in camp for riding a bike and ultimately being charge. Well, maybe God has something for me but I had already failed Him.
Faster ORD, 2 more freaking weeks....there are things which I wanted to do so much such as dye my hair, put new tattoos and learn driving. Come on, I can't wait till I get my pink IC.
There is something which I wanted to blog, pour out the burden which kept inside my heart for long...
Dear Jazlyn Chew (my ex) or friends of her,
You see, you dump me exactly on the day I went for overseas training to Taiwan for a month and left me to rot at one corner without anyone to heal my wounds and shelther me, I was alone all the way to battle the disaster and overcome the depression which you injured me. I was totally no mood for anything, can't concentrate on training, can't sleep well at night and feel like retaliate when my commander is punish me. I can't find time to talk to anybody as the time constraint in training, you got to fall in, got to wake up early and meet the timing.
Every day I countdown the days to return to S'pore so I can beg you for a second chance to patch up with me but you stubbornly refuse because there is people pleasing you and you feel proud of it.
For this you treated me, I want to say that we are no longer friends and if I ever see you in the street, you are just a transparent to me and you are a Christian, I begin to hate every single Christian just because of you. You brought me to Church and you left me alone at one corner sticking with people who I do not know and you go to your friends talking and laughing throughout the entire session. I don't feel welcome by your churchmates because they don't make the first move by approaching me, imagine you attend your girlfriend best friend birthday party and everyone around you is a stranger and how would you feel when she throw you at one side while she attend to her friend. The feeling simply sucks hard.
I don't hate Jesus but I hate HIS PEOPLE....
