Everything has an beginning has an end.

Bad start of 2010

2010-02-12T16:53:00.000-08:00

Welcome to Singapore, Credelyn Almirol.
19th Jan 2010 mark the end of our 7 months of long distance relationship between Singapore & Philippines.
We defeated this tough challenge and obstacle together which I think not many people can do it. I believe majority of the people would simply give up because they want to have the feel of each other in the relationship. The race has ended now and we have begin the next phrase of our relationship which enable us to meet each other everyday.

Not a very good start of the year of tiger which is mine year, :(
Bought a jeans cost $70 at amk hub and wore it only a day, it begin to torn a little, then went back to the shop and ask if i can exchange, was rejected then no choice went to queensway shopping centre to get it stitch.
Gf lost her hp at amk coffee shop, a LG touch screen...all contains our loving photo and sweet message has completely gone. Once realize the phone is missing, we straight away went back to the place and investigate even though i know it straight away that it had no chance of recovery. Went back to ask the customer there and those people collecting plates want, they also mention they didn't see it. Still unconvince, I suggest to them that I wanted to check on them so I brought them to the toilet and check on their pocket. Still...sigh~

Time to upgrade my computer, it's already 4 years old. Many games cannot play, some can play but very lag. Time for a change and perhaps getting my gf a new phone.

A new decade

2010-01-09T04:47:00.000-08:00

A new decade is here or is it just another year? A bad closing year end of 2009 for me as my most important person isn't with me for the 5 special event and I'm out alone. The 5 special events were My birthday, Christmas eve countdown, Christmas, New Year eve countdown and New Year day. I see many lovely couples on the street happily enjoying each other company and is either I'm alone or with just a friend or two. Fortunate for me that I have 2 special friend in life who I keep in touch most of the time. JJ Lai is one of them...
I can say that not many people can overcome this fate such as a overseas relationship whereby you don't get to see/touch your partner anytime or anywhere you want. You can ask your gf to come out at 4am to catch a movies with you but I can't. She's far away from Singapore and we meet up is once in many months. At least I'm strong in mentally and concentrate on my job to earn more money and to enjoy in the end, There always a saying goes, "Suffer first, enjoy later." I can definately and certainly say that people at my age or even younger cannot take this heat, what is yours is definately yours, I know she'll come to me in 1 fine day. God is patient and so do I.
It's a new year, a new decade man... 10 years ago was a year of milliennum and I was in secondary 1, it was a wonderful days then and now 10 years later, I'm busy working, like an adult and already in my mid 20s, some of my friend even got married and had a kid. We led to our separate paths and busy with our own life. My job is logistic and is working on alternate weekends including sunday which mean you'll have to work from mon - sun then you get to rest the next weekend, it's freaky man.
Well, what is likely going to happen this year, nobody will know! Maybe the year of my fortune when I strike lottery and win millions? or maybe the year of my death when lorry knock me down on the road?

sad & happy

2009-11-10T04:02:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging, I had no idea on why that distracting things in my blog on the left hand side it reads 'account inactive for 90 days?' hmmmm, anybody knows?

Feel quite happy because I finally obtain my class 3 after craving it for many years but after a while it back to normal because got no car to drive.

Return from philippines about a month ago, the place there is simple but cheap, you won't spend much unless you have to, the food is nice and especially the people there, they are friendly and the customer service is above awesome!!!

Obtain a IPPT silver for reservist, got 200 bucks from the government, it gone with a blink due to paying bills and mother allowance...

Got a new job as a logistic in amk, don't really like it, mentally stress!! stock taking, packing and admin stuff...I'm not used to it.

Fear for test.

2009-09-17T03:18:00.000-07:00

There is so many test held on October;
Making me feel worried, frighten, low self esteem and nervous.

Class 3 Traffic Police Test at CDC

IPPT TEST and incentive award for reservist personnel
IPPT GOLD for $400
IPPT SILVER for $200
IPPT PASS for $100

IPPT window closed on Nov, will I be able to achieve GOLD standard and get government money? I still got about 1 and a half months to train. I'm pretty worried.

Well, I don't get anybody tagging at my tagboard, make me feel like my blog is desserted. Well, I'm appealling to anyone who will tag at my board and I shall continue to blog on my daily lifestyle which include my personal problem and relationship.
If I don't get any within ten days then I shall leave it unattended.

Genting Highlands

2009-07-06T18:48:00.000-07:00

Genting Highlands travelling on 5 star

16/6/09 - 19/6/09

(Tuesday - Friday)

This is our first checkpoint where we were given 20 mins of toilet breaks and do some midnight shopping of the most recent movies for their dvds.

This is the indoor funfair, it captures the attention of many passer by as it's the only thing that shine brightly and it as big as a half basketball court.

We took a boat ride inside the shopping mall, the view and surrounding truly beautiful, the boat move as slow as a snail so it given ample of time for the guest to take photos.

This is one of the scenary while we were travelling by the boats.

The next day, we went to outdoors games, to avoid the crowd, we set off as early as 9am to have our breakfast first and await for everything to commence at 11am. It was foggy in the morning and it cover almost entirely with mist.

Out of boredom, we do some gay stuff and it's only available to view for those M18 and for those below that, see it at your own risk.

:-)

We took a boat into the dinosaurs land, we purchase a packet of fish food and feed while we journey inside the show of they going to tell us the exist of dinosaurs.

We were creep out by the dinosaurs.

Caught in the web, spider's food!

After all the outdoor games, it's already a quarter of day passed, the funfair and everything outdoor is going to close at 7pm, there is some time so we seek out the funfair and try our luck to win prizes.

We return to our hotel at about 8pm and this is all the prizes we won, you know guys don't buy those right? It roughly cost RM120 per softtoys SGD58 (the huge want) when we check them out. The trip was a fruithful want, it was too many of them so we decided to give some to the kids on the street and some we brought home.

Once again, I enjoy the trip to Genting Highlands. I wouldn't mind going there again. I give a thumbs up to that place, I guess it's so much better than escape theme park and any other entertainment outlet. Spending several hours on a bus ride is really worth it.

Too serious!

2009-07-02T06:42:00.000-07:00

Before she return to philippines, I ask her to be my girlfriend, she thought for a while and finally agrees. It's been a week now and I phone her once in a few days and I begin to addict myself to her, I'm a lovesick men who fall in love easily and be serious very fast. So I'm always a victim of a relationship.
Do you know something? She actually had a boyfriend in philippines before agrees to me, I'm just being a devil trying to break them apart and get involve in a third party relationship. She has been with him for 3 years and they were a childhood friend, she says.
Well, 3 years vs 3 days? who will win ultimately? I've been going out with her for constant 3 days while she's in Singapore, I bring her around with my bike and finally romance at Yishun Dam. Gosh, she enjoys the moment with me.
But right now what worried me is that I'm afraid she might return to her ex-boyfriend in due time, she can dump her boyfriend for me and I'm no doubt that she can dump me for someone else too. Perhaps I need to learn to relax, I've been too serious lately. I do not know whether is this just a crush or a truth love reveals? I won't be seeing her at the moment as she return to school in philippines, her course is degree in business/admin, she is here in Singapore for attachment.
She says she'll return to Singapore and find a job here after she graduate in Nov, I do not know how true but I'll just wait till the end to find out.
She say she have chosen me and tried to forget about her boyfriend, all the sweet smses and e-mail from her containing those confidence message. Sigh, sometimes I just don't really understand what going on with girls mind. I have heard of friend saying that girls decision is always final and seldom back off but how true? For example, if you having affair with another girl and your wife finds out, she initial to break off and that's it. FINAL! Even though you grab a moon from the sky and deliver it to her home, she wouldn't be impress. You buy her a diamond ring, she wouldn't give a damn!
Should I continue to wait or should I give other girl a chance?
It's the feeling I suppose....

Genting

2009-06-25T19:31:00.000-07:00

I'm back from Genting Highlands over a week ago and the photo shot taken by my friend hadn't upload since then and I'm still await for him to send over and it shall be able to view shortly.
I set off on Tuesday night (16th June) together with 3 of my friends, the bus journey took about 5 an a half hour to reach there including the rest point whereby passenger get their chance to grab a bite or toilet break. Each rest point took about 20 mins and all together it stopped 2 times.
When we reach our destination it was 4.30am, and the timing we check in our hotel is at 3pm, I don't know how screw up it was, the organiser perhaps plan it wrongly and so we had so much of time. It's like 11 hours before we can finally take a nap in the noon.
The moment we reach Genting, we went into casino, it's my first time going into such place, as my dress code tells, I wore a cap most of the time I was being ask to remove it and I got no idea about it.
The ceiling above install tons of CCTV, I mean why does it need to do that?
I place my bet in the casino, of course I win some and lose some but it was an experience. I place my bet on the table hoping the table light will flash means I'll won and if it don't, I lose. Most of the time it flash and the feeling is like striking a lottery, and if it don't the feeling is like your gf breaking up with you. It's fun, hopefully the Singapore Casino held at Sentosa will be as fun as in Genting.

TP

2009-06-12T03:50:00.000-07:00

Basic & Final Theory has passed after several attempts and with only one and last test remainning which is the Traffic Police Test where it determine my class 3 driving license which is schedule on the 1st of Oct 2009 aka Children's Day at CDC. I hope to get my class 3 with just successfully one attempts and passed by this year. Hoping to drive a car and take friends out for a spin.

I'll be leaving for Genting Highlands on 16th - 19th June 2009...anything just leave me an e-mail.

movies

2009-06-05T07:50:00.000-07:00

Last midnight at about 2am, I went to watch blood the last vampire with JJ at Orchard Cineleisure, I went to pick him up at his house in Redhill then proceed to town and you know what, I realize that I'm spinning round and round Singapore, I travel down to Farrer Road then Lornie Road then AMK CTE then exit Carinhill, I wasted time and petrol then in the end reach there 30 mins later. I din realize that I can go from Jln Bukit Merah then North Bridge road then Carinhill and it's like 10 mintues or slightly lesser...sigh, everytime always never thought of that.
Anyway, we reach there around 1.10am, bought the tickets at level 4 as all the level that sell the tickets had already closed, as it's still about 45 mins before our show, we went to the kopitiam just outside Cineleisure and had our supper, we see quite a lot of attractive young ladies as they were out from some night club or pub I suppose. We saw quite a few ladies with 1 guy or few guys with 1 ladies then my friend say why the world is so unfair sia?
Went into the theatre, grab a seat and watch the entire show, it's only average I can say, first 30 minutes is a introduce part, almost kept me half asleep and thanks to the fight scene, it is pretty good especially when the korean girl slash her enemies and the special effect of the blood spill out, it is nice, and the show ended but there is no ending.
After the show, I send him home and had our breakfast at Macdonald at nearby his place around 4.30am and eventually I went home.

The next day, JJ told me that adeline had a job interview at somewhere around upper paya lebar and it was $500 a week and she say found it through the newspaper and it's about some kind of road show campaign thingy, it's still hiring so JJ, adeline, her friend and myself went down to that location and check it out. When we reach there, there was this lady receptionist, she has no manner at all, never smile or say greet us, just gave us the application form and tell us to fill it up and wait to be called. Okay, we did as instructed and after filling everything up, we were called in to a room by a guy which I unable to identify as he is wearing casual.
Once he start to open his that mouth and claim that they need people and warmly welcome us and ask us when can we start work? I immediately knew it was a mlm thing, don't come and tell me what marketing stuff, must be brave to approach people on the street, promoting this and that. I don't entertain to this crap!! If it's a mlm thing then just say so at the start la, why must go one big round and say it's a mlm thing sia? You are lucky enough that I sitted down till you finish your three little pigs company story otherwise I'll just get up and walk away. Your receptionist girl already give me a bad image of your company in the first impression already then still ask if your friend still finding a job this is your opportunites to let them know of.

filming

2009-05-31T19:31:00.000-07:00

I've finish my last fight scene with R.E.M after waited for more than 3 months, I'm happy with that but I'll truly miss the fun, I got only 3 conti shoot and I enjoy it to the max. I appreciate my friends who also take part in this project and they do their part by placing their trust on me to indicate the time & venue for them and they arrive at the scene as instructed.
They are;

Reginald as Reporter
John Sim as Assassin
Joseph as Police Officer
Nico as Police Officer
Mervin as Police Officer
Galvin as Police Officer

It'll broadcast on channel okto, every tuesday at 8pm.

Time flies quickly, it's already June holidays which means half a year has gone. Bitter and sweet moments I have gone through since the start of this year, got a job at Mount Alvernia Hospital and also doing part time filming for the company corporate video, made many new friends, reunited with my lost good brothers.
Grandmother passed away...Sigh!
So what's gonna happen for the next half a year...
Let's be strong and live till we find out.

audition

2009-05-27T00:25:00.000-07:00

Two days ago, I went to the channel 5 audition held at mediacorp, I waited at the reception there and listening to my mp3 while I watch all the four TV which is joined together, each TV show a different channel and my eyes kept rolling left, right, centre.
After that a lady came and call for us, she mark the attendance and immediately we were led to a huge container like those ship ferrying the goods transporting to sell to other countries. We were sitting down there and issue a script to roughly had a idea on how's going on later. There were 4 of us all together but we don't know one another so we kept to ourself throughout the entire session, then 1 by 1 we were dispatch and again led inside a quiet room, there was this young attractive lady attending to me, she issue me a application form and ask me to filled up all my particular and I did as instruct, quickly she ask am I ready to act? I was quite nervous at that time and without wasting any time I quickly catch my breath and nod my head.
Whilst filling up the application form half way through, a noise coming out from the wardrobe screaming, "help! help! I'm stuck" I immediately ran to rescue but I found no one inside and what comes to my mind is some voice recording devices that kept there, I ignore it and return to my seat. Then it suddenly appear 1 middle age woman and I got surprise, I keep on staring at her while she walk pass to the exit door.
Moments later, she return and hid inside the wardrobe again, I wasn't paying attention and continue to fill up my form, and there she scream the same old thing again, this time I get out from my chair and tries to open it but she kept on holding on to the door, there was a struggle and suddenly that middle age looking woman who I mention earlier on appeared behind my back, I got shocked and stun for a second, the door which I was struggle to break free then appear that attractive young lady.
In the end, both of them show me where the camera is being placed and told me that it was a new series of a comedy show, 'Just for laugh'.

Everything ended an hour later, I catch up with JJ, Adeline & Charles at bpp mac, still the same old problems again, having the hard time seeking that location and direction is still quite lost.

Caucasian & Asian

2009-05-23T11:07:00.000-07:00

I've working at sentosa slightly more than a week and you get to interact and communicate with all kind of people around the world.
This job I'm working attracts many tourist as fun and entertainment for them when they are here in Singapore, I can say Singapore government did a excellent job by building it very well and attract tons of people from many countries.
I was send to this station quite often whereby I get to teach people on how to ride a luge, it's like a wooden plank attached with a wheels going down a slope by controlling the steering.
There were many people from many countries came to take this ride and staff like us got to teach and coordinate with them, I can say that people from Europe, North America or the other part of the world was a very smart people and we chinese name them as 'Ang Moh'. They are fast and a quick learner, they pay attention all the times and listen carefully and execute it smoothly, Caucasians especially, they are extremely friendly and equip with a smile wherever they go and lastly say with a big thank you after you have taught them. It's like you felt so appreciated and that brighten my days, no wonder why Singapore girls fell for them easily. I'm saying this not because I think highly of them is because I'm stating the fact, I couldn't find any chance to criticize them, it's like they are born to be perfect. I cannot explain so clearly also, wait till you socialize with more Caucasians people then you can differiate between Heaven and Earth.
And as for the Asian, they aren't as fast as the others, there are some country people which is slow, stubborn and annoying to the max which I shall not spell it out. I got to repeat myself at least thrice or slightly more so that they understand, we asian cannot understand each other and I wonder why Caucasians can understood my teaching so well.
Then Caucasian people is very open minded and don't even bother about a minor thing such as there was this skyride up to like about as high as the Singtel building, it can only ferry maximum 3 people as it cannot support too much weight. There was this Caucasian family of 4 so I've told them that I'm going to divide you into 2 by 2 and they agrees with a smile, how sweet! And for the Asian, I'm telling them the same thing as I told the Caucasian, you know how they respond? They respond with a frown on their eyebrown and kept repeatly asked why cannot? how come? why and why? Oh my god!!!
I was like *Smack forehead.

Audition

2009-05-20T21:06:00.000-07:00

When I take out my mp3 player to listen to FM, there a few songs that pleases to my ear, I tried searching in on net and finally I found it on this website which provides me with all the songs I want and I'm quite excited with that. In case if anyone happen to search for a mp3 website...
Here it goes,
http://www.mp3fusion.net/

After getting involve with production for many months, I still prefer to act than to be on set. I'm a Infantryman during my 2 years in army and perhaps already got to use to it to follow instruction than to issue instruction. Why would I say that, I received a called from Mediacorp 2 days ago asking me to go for a mass audition next monday for Channel 5 shows. The funny things is they don't provide a script for us to read through and act. Hmmm, wonder what would that be.
The E-mail as shown,

Hi,As spoken on Tuesday, your audition will be scheduled on next Monday, 25th May 2009, at 5.30pm.

Meeting Venue: Mediacorp Reception area (You will be brought to the audition venue from there)

Dress Code: Casual (be yourself)

1. You have to bring along your NRIC or PassPort to exchange for visitor passes for entry into Mediacorp

2. There will be NO script prior to the audition

3. Your task will be given on the spot during the audition

4. Please be punctual

5. The audition will take approximately 30 mins max*

I apologise to those who called me yesterday with regards to the audition as I am out on a shoot. However I will most likely be in office today to answer queries if you have any.
Best Regards

JDInternEntertainment Productions (Ch5)
MediaCorp TV Singapore Pte LtdCaldecott Broadcast Centre
Andrew Road Singapore 299939

Life!

2009-05-10T11:39:00.000-07:00

I had a enjoyable weekend yesterday and today. Saturday night is my friend brother birthday and he organise a chalet at Costa Sand Resorts, not much people at presence and we were just chatting and bonding, some were just watching television, it's pretty nothing much to do unless someone who is humorous and courageous enough to host a games for everybody and tell some jokes to allow everyone to enjoy the conversation. Hmmm, actually I'm training myself to be either one.
Some brought their partner along with them, you see the world lies with a huge problem which is a relationship, I mean you get to see the envious of those who is single compare to those who is attached. You don't have to spell it out, you get to feel it and judge the expression of the victim or perhaps it might be yourself.
On Sunday night, I received a call from my friend 'Alex', he told me that his close friend wedding dinner and especially booked a table for about 7 - 8 people for him and he rang me up telling me to attend the dinner and I agreed. I only know Alex and no one else, it's kind of strange when you don't know any one and you'll just sat down there alone consuming the dishes coming along the way, Alex was busy attending to his other friend. I was just talking a few sentences to his friend like 'what you currently doing?' 'How old are you?' 'Where do you stay?' just a few common question which most people would normally ask.

After all, I felt I'm a relationship failure, I remember during my school days, I like this particular girl and I happen to know one of her friend but I haven't get the chance to talk to this particular girl yet. I ask her friend to be my messenger and she agrees, I want her to ask this particular girl whether is she interested in me? Within minutes she return with an answer saying 'I'm not her cup of tea.' Heart sank, failure! And after that, I master this verse and this linger in my mind till this day.
Then, I met up with this girl I know online, she's 2 years my junior, I ask her out and she immediately agrees, I bring her out for a ride and I dress nicely with a nice design T-shirt. She say I look cool with this T-shirt I wore and happily and comfortably I felt and I reply so does that mean you like me? She say no, I never like you before and I reply then why would you agrees immediately when I ask you out, she say because I'm a flirt.

I'm always too 'Tian Zhen'. Don't know how to explain in English, I always thought that I had a bike I can win many girls over but I was wrong. I thought girls would be impress if guys own a car/bike but never it came to a true. I thought girls would immediately say yes after a few rides of sending her home and allow her to taste the thrill of the wind and yet again I get a no. I believe love plays a major role in someone else life and you create the fate and await to happen and not let fate decide, this is bullshit.
When I was 16 years old, I begin interest in film making by watching many movies in the theatre, I thought to myself by 20+ I can become a director and yet again I was wrong.
And now I'm just a spirit who died from suicide roaming around the street...
Was lost...

Ridiculous

2009-05-06T05:15:00.001-07:00

Today I went to Sentosa with Jonathan for a job interview, I own a transport for many years and many different type and various of places I been through majority they would allow any type of transport and ever I came across one ridiculous rules of their very own sentosa where they refuse the entry of my bike, I was like wtf! Quite furious with their *rules and I was forced to retreat to where I came from and parked by bike at St.James Power Station and took a cab there. I mean why would I have to take an extra mile just to get to my destination? It's damn ridiculous...
Crazy as it sounds..
Anyway, I was shortlisted by the manager there, he was from New Zealand and is causasian man, He English is quite fluent and had to pay extra attention just to catch his English. Actually I'm not very keen on that job as partly is the distance, I had to get my ass out of my bed at least 1 1/2 hour in advance, time taken to Sentosa Bus Interchange at 45 mins and wait for the bus and entry to Sentosa then don't know take what Red/Blue line bus inside Sentosa to my workplace, what time already sia? Anyway, just to gain a little experience there and made new friends.

new sports

2009-05-01T03:18:00.000-07:00

Well, I've just adapt into a new sports and that's swimming, it's been quite some time since I went swimming at Yishun Safra with Jasper, I believe it has been more than a year and what I'll do is that I will just stay put at one corner enjoying the waves of water coming to my body and feel the sensation. And now it might be something different, I learn new skills from Jonathan and his friends, I tend to breathe in while inside the water and drank it as well perhaps I'm still not use to it, after all I did learn something, float in the water and swim only a few meters. I begin to feel the fun, they were about to leave the pool and I mean come on man it's only an hour or slightly more why is there to hurry to leave for that street fighter 4? Reluctantly I left...
After the swim, we went for our lunch at amk hub and unfortunately, as it was due to a public holiday there were packed with many people and it's rather difficult to find a spot to settle down for our lunch, from S11 to fastfood outlet and to finally a high class restaurant, we spotted an empty seat and there we go although the meal there is kinda costly but doesn't matter, there were a comfortable cushion.
I consume a buffalo chicken pizza and it taste awfully terrible to the max, the chicken taste rotten, it's somewhere at amk hub basement 1, well I guess it's rather not nice to spoil the name of the restaurant so I'm not gonna mention the name.

Sad story

2009-04-27T06:46:00.000-07:00

The recent passing of my grandmother making me feel damn bad mood, though I'm not really close to her and at times I still miss her and think of the days when she's around, seeing her lying in a coffin making me feel she's completely innocent and why would she have to dies? The grief, crying and yelling in depress came from my aunt, uncle and many more making me heart ach as well, laying down my head and almost burst into tears whilst the coffin was about to buried. Life is pretty short, she's exactly 80 years old this year and died in Changi General Hospital in less than a week ago. Damn, human just have to die...

The overall changing of my bike accessories and parts truly cripple me a lot, I mean the financial wise, it cost more than $800 to change all the old parts into new such as the chain, engine oil, clutch gear, the cleaning of the internal and alone the worksmanship itself is $180, damn it's ridiculous. It mean the service charge itself cost so much?? Just have to wait for next payment to come in order to feel secure.

lifestyle

2009-03-24T00:34:00.000-07:00

If memory serves me right, I can celebrate 1 year anniversary of my ORD. Wow, so fast!

I don't enjoy the lifestyle like those common people, everyday work and then return home completed one day doesn't mean that I don't like to work, actually I prefer to take part time, work a few hours then go back do what I want to do like keep fit, go for a jog, know what is going on with the outside world, read the news, catch up with friend, write a story, do my short film and go for acting in the extras for mediacorp. There are so many things to do in the world.
Thanks to JJ for the audition he recommend to me so I could qualify for filming that involves dialogue.

unfair

2009-02-25T09:12:00.000-08:00

Recently, I bought a original PC game 'Dynasty Warrior 6', it's a PS3 game and such a fortunate that I can play it on my com, the game requirement just nice it meets my com system. Although it still a little lag somehow better than cannot play. Then again, I got a game from my friend 'Left 4 dead' currently very popular among the lan shop, it also meet my com system. I felt quite lucky to have this 2 nice game which I can play it on my com.

Sometimes I don't really understand myself, always feel that I couldn't let go of the grudges I had in my heart which is the feeling of being unfair I'm not sure is it from the government or God himself who plan it? I feel that friends of mine and myself is totally so different, my friends who is in the army with me at the same time being into some places in the heavenly full with comfort zone and having a free license after leaving the place which is a driver and myself being under the hot sun, running around carrying heavy loads, screaming and yelling from peers and senior, ordering and pushing me around.
I felt so miserable, and now having to folk out much cash just to get a driving license, I feel so fark up. I mean if they want to, we'll run the race together but it's like that they start the run first and I'm just being hold up. Felt so demoralized. It's like wtf, why people no need to spend $ then eventually got license then outside people need to spend at least 1k just to get it. I simply don't understand the unfairness....
I mean I still couldn't accept this fate ba, I don't blame anybody, maybe it's just suay ba I guess...

And seriously I've been into temptation recently, something which I see in the streets whereby guys my age or younger having a sweet and pretty girl around them, someone who is hot. Working in a hospital where I get to see many patient coming in and out frequently, I see many couples around and I have to serve them like if they cannot walk, I'll have to wheel them with a wheelchair. I do understand life is fark up like somebody else do, you just can't compare a boss and a worker.

Hai

2009-01-25T06:32:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!

I do not know what promoted me to return to this site, it has been nearly a year since I ord and my life is still the same even before ns. I'm not a happening guy like those who can plan outing properly nor a humorous guy who can make people laugh. I mean I do not know how to describle myself, friends around me since I went in ns is exactly the same after ns. I try to widen my friends but in the end it's still back to the original shape. I don't really have many female friends as well, the ratio of my guys friend to girls is like 20: 2. I'm not rich nor handsome perhaps that's the answer I suppose.
The jealousy and anger in my heart often burns when I think of my friend who is in service side while in ns like those vocation government feed them with free license and in air con room relaxing and I always the unlucky want went in as a infantry man. I hate being a rifleman but actually there is one good thing which I need to think positive, I'm much fitter than them, I can run and I can jump.

Sigh, life is still always unfair and it's always is...

BYE!

2008-12-22T04:39:00.000-08:00

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It won't be update anymore! So passer by or anyone can leave this site.
It shall be inactive for a very long time.

Merry Christmas and Best Wishes for 2009

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Birthday

2008-11-15T22:58:00.000-08:00

My 22nd birthday...
Actually I had plans on my birthday such as gather all my bunch of old friends/pals for a steamboat dinner at amk or my new house for mahjong due to the constant of overwhelming projects and many deadline to meet, I decided not to plan and instead staying at home and finish up the unfinish business.

Still...
Anyway, many thanks to those people who remember my birthday fondly and even take the initally to send an sms.
There are;

Teo Yong Heng at 10:43:34pm on 15/11/2008
Chyhsia at 12:13:49am on 16/11/2008
Reginald at 12:19:16am on 16/11/2008
Yan Ling at 12:24:15am on 16/11/2008
Wendy Lim at 10:23:51am on 16/11/2008
Bryce Chua at 03:44:56pm on 16/11/2008
Pan WeiQi at 04:52:01pm on 16/11/2008

Mervin Tan
Clarance
Jasper Yu

pub

2008-09-28T01:00:00.000-07:00

I went to my friend, friend's birthday last night by the name of Stanley pub. One of the most funny thing and also irritating is that I do not know the way and the birthday person tell the location not clear and understandable. She gives the full address and say that it's between bugis and lavender, that's all. Never say the surrounding got what and near where.
I find the place find until vomit blood, one of the most pub hot spot is clark quake and mohammad sultan, I spin and spin so many round but die die cannot find but only to know the place is just beside beach road and only 5 minutes walk from Raffles Hospital. I wouldn't have waste so much petrol if she give more detail about the location.
When I got there, the entire pub is surrounded by the birthday girl, I think none of the customer is a outsider, so we sat down at the table consume some snacks and I drink something which you cannot never imagine, I drink a coke. People go there is to drink alcohol and I go there is to drink coke. Anyway, I made a few friends there but never exchange contact no. I left there around 2am cause quite a number of people left already and also getting bored.

photography

2008-09-17T18:43:00.001-07:00

Ah ha, long time never post photo to entertain you guys already.
This course by the name of 'The Puttnam School Of Film' held at Lasalle is very interesting, things that done in school is about the same as in Mediacorp filming, I get this chance to experience it.

This is the film exercise given by my lecturer, got see the 'ang moh' sitting behind the 3 of us, she's very strict want, don't think all ang moh are good, some very fierce want a bit only scold like i owe her $$ for many years.

This is the F1 taken outside Tangs at orchard road, it's is eye capturing whereby passer by never failed to take a glance when they pass by.

stress

2008-09-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

Is life fair? Do everybody satisfy with their needs?

Sigh~

Please! I want peace! Get out of my life!

IT show

2008-08-31T01:27:00.004-07:00

I went to IT show yesterday, It is very crowded, I see many people buying LCD screen, laptop, dvd and etc where you can name of any electronical items. The most irritating part is they stand down there and don't move blocking people path, some using their handphone standing there. Really inconsiderate people!

Then I go and watch Wall-E at GV marina square, wah! GV is damn pathetic, first the seat is so hard that u sit long liao ass very pain and the commerical is damn bloodly long about 15 - 20 mins, can sleep want. Then when it start to off the light and the screen is expanding, I thought it going to start show then still come commerical again. Zzzzz
Wall-E is boring man, starting is quite funny, the dialogue is not so much. I gives 2/5.

no title/

2008-08-20T08:48:00.001-07:00

I went to book my final theory this afternoon at ssdc, it is scheduled on 17th Oct, after that it begin to rain. Realli spoilt my mood and I have to sit down at one corner and stare until the rain stop then I can go. Whilst riding on the wet road, the water on the ground keep splashing onto my leg and make me very annoyed.

Hope I can pass my final asap and let me concentrate on my practical, hopefully can get my class 3 by the end of next year.

Now resources is running very low, where to earn it? I got school from mon - fri and I want to enjoy on sat especially at night and get a good rest on sun and also do project. So how? any solution?

I felt that dota is sticking me, each time when I reach home, I switch on my com immediately, throw everything aside first and play dota on bnet. Die liao, very addicted already...damn!

....

2008-08-13T20:51:00.000-07:00

End of civilization in 2012? I don't know la, see my friend in msn nick say so and when I ask how he know, he say he watch the news. True or not, I don't know la just know that everyone else would also want it to end everything fast.

Entering the 2nd week in school, still the time table cock up and classmates divided into many parts. It's really not a good start.

After having dota install on my com, i begin to keep playing every single moment when i'm at home, die liao...beginning to get addicted.

Back to normal

2008-08-11T08:24:00.000-07:00

I have cleared my Basic Theory this morning at ssdc, thanks to BigJ! Now, it's time to get a little hands on the steering wheel. I'll be applying my PDL this week, get to know some private instructor first then slowly conquer class 3. Although it sounds a little exaggerating but I have the determination to do it, I thirst for class 3 and shall put in all my heart and soul to achieve it.

Mess have been cleared up...
Police is no longer investigating...
Life back to normal...

Not a good start

2008-08-06T20:47:00.000-07:00

It's my first week of school, the time table is very cock up in the last minute supposely to have lesson but the lecturer mother in law passed away so unable to come and some module have to re schedule. Seriously, it is not a good start. Half of my classmate were foreign, some of them were from Indonesia and India, also I find lots of weird people in my school, some of them were actually guys but dress up like a girl and guys with very long beard and also people who dress up like a magician. It's ok, it's their wish.

Sigh, I have end up in a deep shit recently. Some of them may know and some of them may not, it's a very long story, longer than harry potter.

2008-08-03T08:14:00.000-07:00

I'm back in action! Sigh, don't know who nothing better to do go tag my blog with some wrestling thingy, i hate y2j ah, i love edge ah...maybe some 14, 15 years old kids, nothing to say!

Wa, I don't know fail basic theory how many times liao ever since I first took it on Mar 07, people had a big question mark on how I got my bike licence and they expect me to be good in road sign, actually I never study also, just trying my luck.

Got into Lasalle Level 1, diploma in film. I didn't expect myself to be accepted as my presentation wasn't very good and my portfolio doesn't look interesting as expected. But still I will put in my heart and soul to achieve my goals.
Tomorrow will be my first day in school, feel kind of excited but also pressuring myself as I know it gonna be very stress, feel stress as it sure going to rain when I'm on my way to school. So many things to worry...

I move into Buangkok a couple of weeks ago, feel happy as I got my own room but after a while, it's normal le. Beginning to miss yishun, miss my friends, miss northpoint and miss safra.

I drop by sgforums and happen to read one article regarding a 19 years old girl who died in a car accident, I don't know it at all till I find it at forum. What a pity, so young, pretty and cute, also quite a happening girl. Read a few post of her blog, she go pub/club, bbq, KL and many outing...
She's quite fortunate to have a very good friend who care for her so much...

Here is the link,
http://kissonmylips.blogspot.com/ - herself
http://caiweii.blogspot.com/ - her good friend

Blog closed?

2008-06-29T07:47:00.000-07:00

Should I continue to blog?

Apparently, people have been confronting me when I post something that speaks from my heart.

Should I??

Think again....

Shopping

2008-06-14T20:56:00.000-07:00

Recently, I have received many junk e-mail stating that I have won 750 000 USD in a lucky draw and a bank CEO from hong kong would like to start a business with me here in Singapore so he offer me over a million dollar. This has been continue throughout the past 2 weeks, I don't know if some might be true, I was ask to fill up the particular just like you are looking for a job. I ring up a few of my friend and clarify whether this be a real, they told me no harm trying as they did not ask for credit card no.

I went to town yesterday for a window shopping after I knock off from work, then I encounter a break dance competiton called 'The B-Boy' at hereen. Many competitor sign up to win attractive prizes and I was standing there for 3 hours to watch the entire thing, I can see Singaporean got this powerful talent to perform such moves like the moon walk and spin their body like a ball. Many as young as 15, 16 years old and most of them were Malays.

Many of my good friend birthday falls in the month of June, I got real busy as I want to celebrate for them as they turn 21 this year. A year of stepping into adulthood and no longer a kid to their parents, an independent stage of life.

Wishing them a Happy Birthday;

Mervin & Galvin
Iqbal
Tan Guan Ling

and upcoming
Jonathan Chua, Angela Liang

Events

2008-06-01T07:21:00.000-07:00

A few weeks back, I receive a call from my school saying that I have been accepted into Level 1, school of film but before I was official directed into it, I must take a short courses there, it is a 2 weeks assignment which introduce insight of film making and some theory. Now it is a crucial moments, I need all the finance I can get. The course fee would be a 3k per year so I have to put in extra effort in order to achieve that amount.

1st of June and half a year has gone to pass, time flies very quickly. I realize I'm getting older....

Last friday, Wendy and I went to the youth park behind cineleisure to watch my friend performing at the stage, he was both singing and hosting an event called 'street festival'. Though I did not see much as I was having my dinner, there is a kopitiam beside it so pardon me for not watching you live on stage. :x
We went to cineleisure after that, planning to catch chronicals of narnia but it was sold out completely, the crowd on friday is better than weekend. Well, I just enjoy being in the crowded area, make me feel it's very happening.

backslide

2008-05-16T22:01:00.000-07:00

It had been a couple of month since I left the army and currently working at senoko.
I want to reflect about 2 years I spent in army; I sat down at one corner and relax, I begin to think, looking left and right I see most of my friend were posted to driver, clerk, techician or some service side and myself? I call myself as a Rifleman? What they serve in army is totally different from what I do. Why can't I be the lucky want like most of my friend did? I like cars and have been tempted to hands on vehicle, eager to experience it and see how's the feelings like.
You are a driver in army, they provide you with free license after you ord, of course you love the government. Try going to Infantry, experience the route march, outfield, PT...
Since I have no car and license, I go for bike, remember riding it to camp one day, caught by my superior and been confine, ultimately charge!! I wouldn't mind been punish for booking in late, steal, fight or etc, that's reasonable but riding a bike.....?
I believe all this were plan by God himself, I'm having a hard life throughout this 2 years, thanks to Him. All the tekan, tough days, blood shed, beening punish unreasonable were too pain to cry alone in your bedroom.
I decided not to step into any Church in my life again, all my efforts isn't recognise by anybody nor Himself.
Once a backslide, forever a backslide.

Spoilt hp..

2008-04-27T05:06:00.000-07:00

Yesterday afternoon while I'm playing see-saw below my block and suddenly my handphone drop from my pocket. The LCD screen has spoilt but it still function properly, it just cannot see anything. Out of desperation as it's contain my friend contact number and beautiful forward messages, I stored everything inside my phone. I quickly send it to service but the salesman say it's not worth it to repair as it cost $80+. I rather spend a little bit more to buy a brand new want.

Anyway, do you believe in this? http://servercapital.com/extracash/
It teaches you how to earn money from home, all you have to do is sign up as their membership and pay a little amount of fee, every few hour the USD just flow into your account. Well who knows, it might be true...

Upgrading Singapore

2008-04-23T06:11:00.000-07:00

This afternoon, I went to Downtown East shopping Centre to take a look at how it's progressing. I feel that in the next couple of weeks Paris Ris is going to be a great place.
There is a chalet beside the shopping centre, most youth would organise chalet during the holiday season and when they are bored and got nothing to do, they would go and catch some late night movies, bowling or even pool in the shopping centre itself. It's a excellent idea by the organiser. Owner at the shopping centre sure earn money like there's is no tml.
A new cathay cinema will be launch at Downtown East, as a member of nebo, I got a discount entry into the cinema.
Next week, a movies of "Ironman" will be release and I decided to catch it at Downtown East.

Numerous of upgrading in S'pore, construction at Adam Road, Yishun ave 9, beside Paya Lebar MRT, beside Somerset MRT, etc. Singapore will be a very beautiful city in the next decade or less. 24 hours of enjoying the scenery in Singapore wouldn't be enough, it just taste so good.

a enjoyment event

2008-04-20T20:23:00.000-07:00

Last night, I went to watch forbidden kingdom with wendy at Orchard Cineleisure, reach there around 8pm and as usual when we were purchase our movie ticket at the counter, the time slot for the show from 8 - 11 pm is all sold out completely and we have to purchase only at 12am then the movie ticket is available, only at the first 5 seat then got but we manage to view the screen comfortably. The show is basically all about buddhism story of journey to the west and some extra character they add on. Jet Li and Jackie Chan martial arts is equal, there is some scene where they fought each other fiercely and both of them strike and block at the same time.
Before the show begin, we went shopping at Cineleisure, I'm surprise I saw both my bmt ps and my unit ps. They still look at the same.

I was invited to CHC the next day by a girl who I know in msn, her name is felicia, 18 years old this year who claim to have add me accidently. She told me that her church got a special event, a korean pastor came to Singapore and preach. I ring up some of my biker kakis and we went there.
When we at the church we bring our helmet along because some of my biker friend doesn't have a box on his bike so they have to carry on their hand. As usual those christian stare at us sharply like as if we were some hooligan or what. CHC is damn big, almost all the seat in the premises were filled up. I find the sermon is still all right, Then I was introduce to felicia care group which are quite a number of ladies. Mostly poly or ite year 1 and 2.

stories...

2008-04-17T11:12:00.000-07:00

Recently, I downloaded a game called "Warriors Orochi" into my psp and it kept me so addicted that I played it everyday and had skip my meals so often. My mother even scolded me for not consuming my meals and have to store the food into the fridge. Anyway, the game is a combination of my favourite dynasty warriors and samurai warriors and I had been busy leveling up my best character and train them to be the strongest and beat the boss. Well, the game is filled with so much of excitement. Try it out?

I have heard from my siblings that the north pole ice is melting and what could that mean? Well, news have reported in the next decade the north pole ice will melt most of it due to the over heat from smoke pollution mainly cause by vehicles and burning of devices which will create world wide flood. And I believe, based in the bible end times is drawing near.

While I'm on the road with my bike, fear triggle in my heart which I'm about to dash an amber light where a camera is standing by at the side. I just cannot catch the timing of the red light, I'm riding pass a traffic light fearing that the red light camera would have capture me. I have this phobia. Please help!

Funds have been running low in my account. Not to mention pathetic I am, I simply wait for the reinforcement of funds from the government who will gives us on 30th April for the GST offset. I have been working in the late of March as a sales agent but simply unable to find anybody who requires a china worker. I trust in sales for I believe if you make it, the amount of money you earn is twice as much as normal people work in full time.

Opps, I have learn to buy 4D and toto from wendy nowadays, seems like I have been on the bad side except for touching a cigarette. Learn to drink and to bet.

Blog closed!

2008-04-13T09:49:00.000-07:00

--- BLOG CLOSED FOR FURTHUR NOTICE ---

ANY INCONVIENCE IS REGRETTABLE...

"Don't wish to blog anymore, maybe will continue if I want to..."
Sign out~~

Last update on 13 April 2008 (Sunday)

filming

2008-04-09T20:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I went to filming for Jack Neo in the making on his next Movies, "Money not enough 2" which I think will be launch 3/4 of the year. Basically I wasn't doing anything much, slack at one corner for an hour and I get my paid. Frankly speaking not much, just nice for my full tank, a Macdonald meal and a bowling games then finish already.

hmmm, nothing much I want to say.....

update again when I got something to say....

Places yet to visit
1) Night Safari
2) Ice skating @ Kallang Leisure Park

useless

2008-04-04T06:34:00.000-07:00

I feel I'm a farked up person in this world...

Firstly, I do not have a qualification.
Secondly, I do not have a career.
Thirdly, I don't know how to earn big money.
Fourth, I'm a hot temper, easily frustrated and a bad attitude person. If you can't accept me as a friend or something more, I urge you to stay away from me.
Fifth, I think I do not have the ability to attract pretty girls. I remember going to Changi Village one night with my friends, I wave at them as I drive pass them but they choose to ignore me.

Yet again, I failed an interview to Lasalle for the 2nd year diploma in school of film. Kah nah, that stupid ang moh who interview me talk so fast and chim make me catch no balls, I then saying pardon and pardon, he seem not unhappy and when I try explaining my portfolio, he wasn't really paying attention to me.

Also, I failed my basic theory for the 3rd time in 8 months.

Fail....fail...fail lor. So what? I already use to it...
No matter how hard I tried also like that...

Guess right now, I'll just have to work, work and work till the day I die.

Job

2008-03-31T20:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I went to Mandai to pray my grandfather, aunt and my father as it is 'Qing Ming Jie' (chinese for praying to the relative who passed away). When I reach there, the first thing I want to do is look for my good friend David Li who died in old upper thomson road but I was unable to locate him.
Then, I receive a call from zack saying that he met in an accident near my place, I tell my brother who is driving and I rush down to find him, I cannot tell how worst can it be. When I meet him, he suffer some minor injuries with several scratch on his lower limb. When Mervin & Galvin came into the scene moments later, I felt a little disappointed but angry with Mervin as he is truly my close buddy and yet he want to fight with me over a girl and he accuse me of snatching his gf. I think you are quite sensitive, love cannot be force and even if someone win your gf over, you should blame yourself that you did not build up your relationship well and is not strong enough, fragile easily. That's the principle of love! But anyway, since we already started talking, I felt I should have forgo the situation.

I have found a job through my sister bf and I'm happily working with it, the job is a sales agent and it is a freelance, the time is flexible and only earn by commission. The jobscope is simple, all you have to do is find a shop who require an helper and you provide them with china worker but the boss must have 3 CPF holder, no necessary paper work to be done, we'll be doing these admin stuff ourself.

lobang anyone?

2008-03-26T09:42:00.000-07:00

I was unable to update my blog as my sister suspected the computer is down with an unknown virus that will infect the entire C drive so she send for service.
Anyway, I have been slacking and enjoying life since I finish army 3 weeks ago and my savings is running low, it's about time to look for job. The first thing that struck through my mind is to work as a delivery rider as I think by riding on the road and deliver stuff to people would quite a relax job without stress and what disappoint me was I went for interview this afternoon at amk pizza hut, the manager is a malay and told me beside doing deliver there are more such as assisting the waitress in serving the customer and do closing, the pay is only $4.20! I mean I wouldn't mind riding a motorcycle and deliver everyday and get paid $4.20 and I still have to do closing and serve the customer. Well, it get me hestiate once again...
Sigh, wanna look for job also hard. I even tried going back to those various place which I work before during my school holiday but they don't need people already. Who got lobang or anyone work place still need people, i'm available here. :-)

Tough Challenge

2008-03-13T06:30:00.000-07:00

My greatest challenge in 2008 (Part 1)

Who: James Liang
What: Interview for direct entry to 2nd year for diploma in school of film
When: 28th March 2008
Where: Lasalle, block F
Why: It is my only interest in studying film and eager to be a film maker

I'm facing this tough challenge as I'm only a 'N' Level as my highest qualification and is applying for Lasalle to the 2nd year in film as it require a 'A' Level, I can only depend of my portfolio. I'm not putting into so much hope as the more I hope, the more I don't get. I'm trying my luck and hopefully in success to become a Movies director in the next decade.

What if i .....if....i really failed? Should I tell myself to stop dreaming of become a film maker and give up everytime? I only want to involve in the film industry.

My greatest challenge in 2008 (Part 2)

Who: James Liang
What: Basic Theory
When: 28th March 2008
Where: SSDC (Singapore Safety Driving Centre)
Why: I wanted to drive a car and quit as a biker

I like Mazda 3, the design is beautiful and it's quite fast I believe, there is one time I ever race with Mazda 3 with my bike and I lost tremendously, I remember speeding at about 140km/h.

Rain, rain when will you go away? You have been stopping me from riding my bike this few days. Once it rain, it shall carry on till night time and suddenly it unleash it's full force and heavy downpour again. I don't want to hide in the forest again when I'm in expressway.

wish

2008-03-11T21:01:00.000-07:00

People always say, "Lai de kong kong qu de kong kong" meaning you come and go out of the world empty handed. I don't understand why do all the common people keep themselves real busy by earning so much money for? There are times when I ask my close friend out for a lunch or chill out at night, they would say "sorry pal, tomorrow got work." If not they say next week is public holiday sure must work got double pay!!
As for me, I don't require to be a millionaire to retired. I earn just nice for myself, you give me $100 million like that lor, you don't want to give also like that lor. I mean life is just to be happy and stay out of trouble, I don't see a need in stress over money and see other people have what then I also must have what.
I see a couple of my friend who passed away over the last few years and the most recent who has been killed in old upper thomson road known as the devil's bend made me realize that people would go anytime, anywhere. It is just so unpredictable....

I don't invest too much hope on something, as I believe the more hope you put in the more you don't get.

Activities

2008-03-11T13:03:00.000-07:00

Fark the rain sia! only cause inconvenient to the biker. Timing everytime so accurate, wan go out only rain. If not, i'm halfway on the road then rain make people have to stop halfway throughout my journey then seek for nearby bus stop for shelther, then in the mid of expressway, have to stop at the road shoulder then go inside the forest and hide, make me another outfield again. I no more infantry leh, I civilian now...

Last week I apply for Lasalle in the direct entry to 2nd year which I get to major diploma in film and I successfully earn my spot for the interview which schedule on 28th March 2008, this time don't farking rain please. That day I'll be quite pack and require a lot of travelling so please don't rain. I still got basic theory in the morning then at night got my friend chalet at downtown east.

There are a couple of outing which I'm planning to go and wendy will be joining me for the entire event. I open to anyone who are interested in tagging with me...

Chill at Clark Quay
Chill at Yishun Dam
Movies at Cinleisure
Ice skating @ Kallang Leisure Park
Night safari
Zoo
How Pao Villa

In blue: Events had been clear
In orange: Events that are to be attend

ORD Night!

2008-03-06T21:52:00.000-08:00

The ORD dinner was held at The Chevron on 5th March 2008, the food is average but I truly enjoy the most is the performer on stage, it was enjoying! Below is the pictures I have taken on that day. Enjoy! All right, army has finish and it's time now to concentrate on career.

From left: girl in blue "Miss China" and girl in red "Miss Bangladesh" (Wow! isn't it lucky?)

ORD night, a night to remember!

ATGM Platoonmates from left: James Liang & Kavin Aw.

ATGM Platoonmates from left: Shawn Tham & James Liang.

ATGM Platoonmates from left: Ronald Ng, James Liang & Benedict Chan.

ATGM Platoonmates from left: Kenneth Yong, James Liang & Lee Qin Yi.

Performer on stage!

Body building on stage, competiting on who has the most obvious 6 pack and biggest bicep. There are 4 participant in all and 1 of them is super fat, almost like Moses Lim but in the end he won because we look for the most funniest person and not the strongest. :D

Performer: girls seducing a master sergeant! Look at the shirt that were unbutton, it was done by them and he was seem enjoying it. Nice!

Performer: Dancer trying to entertain us but were not affected cause all cannot make it and mostly are from China.

ORD LOH!

2008-03-05T09:06:00.000-08:00

Time truly flies! I have officially completed my 2 years of National Service which last from 10th Mar 06 to 9th Mar 08. But right now, I'm feeling a bit sad because I'm not ready for the next phrase of life which is to be adapt into the society as a working adult. I realize when we grow older, everyone of us were busy with our own stuff and some prefer to keep themselves occupy by involving in relationship. Friendship begin to drift apart and for this I have lost many good friends whom I made during my school days. Life is so difficult and things don't always get in your way, If I could been accepted into 2nd year in Lasalle, I'll be on my way to success in taking the role in becoming a Movies Director.
Below are the picture of the ord parade...

ORD Parade.

From Left: My best buddy who confine with me for riding bike into the camp, he is CPL Wu Weijian and CPL James Liang.

From Left: LTC Brandon Lee & CPL James Liang.

From Left: LTA Kendrick Wong, CPL James Liang & 2LT Colin Chua.

From Left: Wendy Lim & Myself.

From Left: My Mother, Myself & Wendy Lim.

From Left: My Mother, Myself & My Brother.

ORD LOH!!!

hopes

2008-02-28T03:54:00.000-08:00

The end of the world in 21st December 2012? I found it at http://www.december212012.com, I'm not certain whether it is true or not but it largely concern of Christian belief which involve apocalypse. They provide lot of source in it, read more to find out.

I've been in rotten luck this year for a couple of times, I was being fine $120 and awarded 3 demerit points for stopping at a single zig zag line just because I want to withdraw some cash from the nearby POSB bank just opposite the road where I stop at Yishun Central, I tried to appeal but failed.
Then, I take part in a short film competition organised by fables, storyboard 2008 that building just opposite Cineleisure. I try my luck to win, I know it's not possible to be in top 3 as I'm working alone but at least a shortlisted in top 20 films to win $200 cash.
After ord, I intend to return to Lasalle to study films and I have my portfolio ready, this time I'll try my best to qualify into second year diploma in school of film and after so many failure, I try not to invest too much hope. Still, I have other option in mind, I'll look for jobs if really not fated to study there. Alas! I keen to be a film maker.

Life is so unpredictable, human just come and go anytime and never expected it would happen. I got a couple of friends who passed away since 2005 which includes my grandfather. And I wouldn't be surprise if it happen to me one day since I'm taking a risk in riding a motorcycle as it has the highest accident rate on earth. I have mentally prepare that it would occur to me, I tried not to retaliate to those who offend me because I do not wish to have any regrets.

Portfolio 2

2008-02-25T01:46:00.000-08:00

These are my bike equipment which I wore them during my journey, on the far right is the full face helmet which I wore it everytime when I ride my bike and it has been with me for 2 years ever since alex gave it to me and it's only available in thailand.
On the far left is for my pillon given to me on my 21st birthday by Jonathan Chua, many had comment of the helmet is very nice and some even say "fierce". The jacket in the middle I wore it only during rainning days and it is waterproof, lastly, the rip curl cap in between the 2 helmet I wore it when I wasn't riding my bike.

Above picture is my favourite game "Devil May Cry 3", his name is Dante(right) and his brother Vergil, the game is fun and cool as you get to do many style of fighting and equip different kind of weapon when you get bored using the same old want. Not only using a sword, you use guns such as shotgun, double magnum etc..

Below is the action figure which I bought it at Orchard Cineleisure.

That's about it! more picture is coming your way soon. Stay tune!

ORD

2008-02-23T15:54:00.000-08:00

Last night, I went to watch "Ah Long Pte Ltd" with wendy at Orchard Cineleisure, the show was below average due to some lame jokes they create but there is one scene that really got me thinking which one of the actor in the show says, "before God entrust you into a mission, He want to test your endurance to determine how strong you are" it truly recall back the days when I was being confine in camp for riding a bike and ultimately being charge. Well, maybe God has something for me but I had already failed Him.

Faster ORD, 2 more freaking weeks....there are things which I wanted to do so much such as dye my hair, put new tattoos and learn driving. Come on, I can't wait till I get my pink IC.

There is something which I wanted to blog, pour out the burden which kept inside my heart for long...

Dear Jazlyn Chew (my ex) or friends of her,
You see, you dump me exactly on the day I went for overseas training to Taiwan for a month and left me to rot at one corner without anyone to heal my wounds and shelther me, I was alone all the way to battle the disaster and overcome the depression which you injured me. I was totally no mood for anything, can't concentrate on training, can't sleep well at night and feel like retaliate when my commander is punish me. I can't find time to talk to anybody as the time constraint in training, you got to fall in, got to wake up early and meet the timing.
Every day I countdown the days to return to S'pore so I can beg you for a second chance to patch up with me but you stubbornly refuse because there is people pleasing you and you feel proud of it.
For this you treated me, I want to say that we are no longer friends and if I ever see you in the street, you are just a transparent to me and you are a Christian, I begin to hate every single Christian just because of you. You brought me to Church and you left me alone at one corner sticking with people who I do not know and you go to your friends talking and laughing throughout the entire session. I don't feel welcome by your churchmates because they don't make the first move by approaching me, imagine you attend your girlfriend best friend birthday party and everyone around you is a stranger and how would you feel when she throw you at one side while she attend to her friend. The feeling simply sucks hard.
I don't hate Jesus but I hate HIS PEOPLE....

film maker

2008-02-16T19:34:00.000-08:00

Movies have been my passion for many years, I visit the cinema regularly to catch some action pack or even horror films without fail. Inspired by many great show like "LORD OF THE RING", "THE LAST SAMURAI", and even recent "RAMBO 4" really encourage me to make a film something like that in the future.

Portfolio

2008-02-16T19:33:00.000-08:00

My bike suit
This is how I dress when riding my bike, a full protected full face helmet, a smooth grip of the throttle with my gloves.

my tales

2008-02-16T10:16:00.000-08:00

On the 2nd day of CNY, wendy and myself went to Cineleisure, we wanted to catch either one of the 3 popular Asian Movies such as "CJ7", "Ah Long" & "Kungfu Dunk". We went there around 10pm and can you imagine all the 3 Movies were fully booked till 3am? As almost all the shop were closed due to CNY period, the shopping centre were like a ghost town except for the cinema itself. After disappointing trip, we decided to spin the wind instead.

Last night, I went to old upper thomson road with wendy as I wanted to know where exactly is the most famous formerly known as the racing track which killed a lot of people. When I went in there were 2 direction, on my left is lower pierce reservoir and my right is upper pierce reservoir. I decided to go left first, the road was short and were surrounded by bungalow so it wasn't unusal anyway. Then comes the most scarely part, I went to the right, there road was extremely long and were very quiet. The bend isn't very sharp, just control within your speed limit and you'll be safe, the road shoulder has nothing to cover you, once you lost balance it'll end up going down the deep slope below. There were 2 cars behind me and when I exit the long road, it leads me into a major road where the expressway is straight ahead. I decided to go another round as I wanted to find where exactly my friend "David Li" died, I wanted to look for the sign board which reads, "Fatal accident occur this day, this time etc..."
As I was travelling, my heart beat as fast as I was running 2.4km and felt something strange like someone is either following me or watching me. I remain calm and take it nothing has happen.
When I left old upper thomson road, wendy whisper into my ear, she said she saw some white figure in dark skin which I believe it was a Indian. She then look on my rear mirror whether is it following us, she say, "I don't know."

prank messages

2008-02-07T17:20:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL;

I really have no idea on why am I so unlucky to have guard duty on New Year Eve and last Christmas Eve. Out of so many Chinese in my camp, I'm the *lucky want? Woo girl or strike 4D also not so *lucky but when comes to duty, I'm extremely *lucky.

Recently I received a state of prank messages in my tagboard saying "Chris Jericho is sexy, cool and handsome, I love Chris Jericho bla bla bla.."
It might be one of my friend and I just want to say, It doesn't affect me at all and I don't even bother about you. Anyway, mouth is yours, go ahead and bark whenever you want yeah? Cheers :D.

a letter to david

2008-02-01T08:59:00.000-08:00

In loving memory of David Li,

Didi, I still regard you as my little brother who I dote a lot, I don't know you are involve in an accident a few days ago until Bryce inform me and nobody is to blame for your death.
If you could remember clearly which I always called you "Gimli" in the Lord of the rings movies and I called myself as "Legolas"? I kept repeatly tell you that orcs is up ahead and we have to kill them. Do you still remember it david?

Next, we always played Warcraft III, CS and basketball together back in 2001, 2002. You are one of the professional gamer in our FF clan and get top frag most of the time.

What you always love and do most of the time is your chinese orchestra, you even invited me to your school concert in 2004, although the ticket was a little expensive, it was $12 if I'm not wrong. I even saw you on stage.
I'm sorry david, I know we hardly contact each other ever since I was enlisted into army but I know you have a great time with your new friend in poly. I even borrow your Master Q comics book and still haven't return.

I visited your place today with a group of your close buddies, I almost burst into tears when I see your parents place your favourite jacket and pants on your computer chairs, they even switch on your laptop and place your favourite char siew rice and green tea on your table as to assume you would return to consume them. Your parents told you that we've come to visit you on your photograph. It was saddening.

Rest In Peace
David

Career

2008-01-19T02:24:00.000-08:00

Time pass, pass and pass...
I am no longer a youth or a teenager, I'm an adult of 22 years old this year as in (16th Nov 2008) with so many things to worry about. Especially my career and what I want to do after my army. I can't play anymore like a 15, 16 years old kid.
Life is so busy....*smack forehead

Right now, I have apply for an entry to Lasalle.sia, a school which offer the course of school of film and I'm eager to enroll for that. I inquiry of what are the requirement to get into that course, all they say was to do a portfolio of your own story and film it as your own movies and show them what it takes to be a film maker. Well, guess it's time to work it out solo. I do not have any crew to assist me but I do have some friends to help me act it out.

Life is so occupy...
Shifting house to Buangkok in the mid of the year, many things to pack, renovate the house in order to sell for a higher price.

Taking class 3 driving license, still in the process of taking it...gonna need plenty of $$.

Portfolio of a video...

Girlfriend pregnant...

Happy New Year...

2008-01-01T02:40:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008...

I went to countdown with Wendy at Vivo City, expect to see some fireworks there but to our disappointment we didn't get to see it....
Supposedly we wanted to go Marina Square to watch AVP 2 then on the way see the fireworks but the ticket already sold out from the time of 6pm to 10pm, if you were thinking of watching it? wait till 12am. The timing is just not right, we reach there about 7pm, went to eat and play some arcade till around 8.30pm. As it was early and nothing much to do, Wendy suggest come to my place and relax for a while...

After the countdown, I went to chalet organize by a Church, meet up with the twins at Bugis and we went from ECP. Reach there at 3am plus, everything finish already like bbq, games etc. One bad thing is, there are around 50 over people and the percentage of the people who I know is only 0.5%.

Goals for 2008

1) Class 3 driving license
2) Get to school of films in Lasalle
3) Made at least 10 Movies, currently still making 1.

die liao...

2007-12-28T08:33:00.000-08:00

GOOD BYE 2007!! HELLO 2008!!

3 more days till the end of 2007, what have I done this year? I still serving NS and my days in 2007 mostly all outfield, PT training, this and that, basically nothing much.

70 more days before I can officially go free...

Atec stage 2 is coming in 2 weeks time, siao liao, sure super xiong! outfield 4 days 3 night, How to endure sia? Yet again, if God here answering my prayer, cancel this mission...but I truly doubt it's impossible la but at least make it not very xiong lor, don't make us route march until like 20 over km, sure die lei...lim bei also got father mother to take care and bright future lei. Sian ar, lim bei go through so many outfield for the past 1 year and 10 months liao still come some more. Sian sia, why lim bei infantry, why lim bei not driver or clerk sia....God damn! kan nah, lim bei no point being a Christian liao, pray and pray, still come out nothing, let me sleep in the jungle whereby got beds everywhere...king coil lim bei favourite. haha...

still remain a christian?

2007-12-22T12:06:00.000-08:00

Is God powerful?
Is God capable of solving His people problem?
Is God answering His people prayer all the time?
Do God understand His people feeling?

NO!!!

My question;
Is riding a motorcycle a sin?

So why am I being confine and charge just because I ride a motorcycle to camp? and why am I being the unlucky want to be arrow and punish for nothing? Some people only know my concern, not everyone here knows what exactly had happen...
If you wish to find out what's going on, please refer to my previous entry about a month ago.

Today, a friend of mine brought me to Hope Church held at Suntec city, reason being for attending is partly because of this upcoming Christmas event and also giving face to my friend who invited me, and without further will do, I ring up a few buddy of mine to be my companion. We go there, not only unwelcome by the usher who so call guard the entrance, we also being stare down by the people, looking at us from head to toe as if we were here for trouble. I don't wish to take it seriously as I know many of them from the church itself.
Then comes the most annoying part of the pro gramme, the pastor who appear in the stage talking about Jesus, talk about how great He is and how he heal the blind, heal the sick, kills the HIV for the people and makes me wonder why can't He even lift up my confinement and SOL? During that time, how I pray and crawl on my knee in front of the altar to seek help from Him and He turn a deaf ear on me? That punishment of mine is simply wasn't my mistake and was being punish just because I ride a bike to camp...

So the question is, still wanna remain as a Christian? follow the path of Jesus? Well, I even think of waging a war against Him...
Perhaps I may even picture myself as an anti-Christ....

Damn!

Movies!

2007-12-16T18:51:00.000-08:00

I just bought a video camera at sim lim square for the price of $499, it's a canon brand and is made in Japan, I trust Japan stuff as they are the inventor of the modern technology.
Well, what have I got to say...
FILM MAKING TIME!
Wow! I gonna have a chance to be a director which I get to shout, "Action & Cut."
A short film video of about 10 - 15 minutes, it's about ah beng getting into trouble.
I'll post here when it's done...
Relax and stay tune...

2007-12-13T17:05:00.000-08:00

Let me carry on with my previous entry...
Like many people had this question linger in their mind, where is God when they needed Him so much? Especially a few months back whereby the innocent Korean held hostage at Afghanistan, what is God thinking? 2 of innocent blood has been shed, that's outrageous!

There is another point which I want to highlight, as for my situation; I had many friends, almost close to a million but those closer to me such as my buddy is only a handful want, but those handful mostly had been attach and they spend most of their time on girlfriend. As the chinese say, Zhong She Qing You...
My friendship with my closer friend is beginning to drift apart and slowly I'm getting lesser friend. Mon- Fri in camp, Sat - Sun stay at home....
There are some ways to make friend such as going to clubbing/pubbing and socialize with the opposite gender but I choose not to do it as it wasn't healthy, I'm not shy to approach people and is even happier to be approach so I think I'm doing the right things and do God is currently unhappy with what I've done? These unhealthy lifestyle like smoking, consuming of alcohol, betting of football, gambling etc I don't even touch them! What is He truly want? I think I'm currently lacking now is friends and love. All I have been seeking for a longterm in life hadn't been fulfill, I have been suffering from this for quite a long time!
What is there to be remain as a Christian when I sincerely trusted God as my personal savior and a special friend of mine whereby He can't really solve my problem?
I have the thoughts of mending the bad ways, returning to my previous lifestyle which I use to be a chiongster, using vulgarities and rude to people. I am confuse at a moment, don't wish to say any further. My apology, shall continue in my next post.

Sign off....

Pain!

2007-12-12T05:28:00.000-08:00

When I about to goes to bed 1 night, I keep thinking a lot of things and couldn't sleep. I took out my phone and begin to browse through my phone book and visualize of who is the luckiest army personnel on earth. When I even think of that, I begin to felt that I'm the unluckiest person in this world. Why am I so? It is because majority of my friend who posted as a driver, admin clerk, RP, store man, police and I'm the only one who posted as rifleman who everyday outfield, route march, SOC training, PT and more on chiong suai. Imagine carrying 10 over kg behind your back and walk like more than 20 over km. You see who can take it? I guarantee to those who take my place sure buay tahan. Count yourself fortunate that you don't have to go outfield and sleep in the jungle, you got a comfortable bed in camp and at home. May I know got which people xiong more than me? Except for those in commandos and sof, I'm certain I'm xiong than OCS and sispec. No doubt about that, go brunei and taiwan, climb the hill, climb the mountain, sleep in the jungle then suddenly rain heavily, shirt and pants wet then kena mud liao still have to wear. Xiong until wan to cry, wan to fall out also kena fark by your superior. What is this sia?
And I believe who responsible for my hardship and pain is none other than God himself, it's all plan by him, our way of life and programme. Does he even think of how I feel and am I treated the same way as my friend?

Journal...

2007-12-07T03:17:00.000-08:00

1) It's my first time wearing no.4 (army uniform) riding my bike home from camp, the feeling is a bit weird cause I'm not really use to it and wearing boots to change gear is a little uncomfortable too, the boots too thick and when you shift to gear 1, it automatically shift to 2.

2) Sigh, I think I couldn't hear clearly on my left ear, the right ear is louder than left, my friend think that it might be either infection or some dirt blockage. I'm going to visit a doctor tomorrow morning at Yishun polyclinic. Hope it's nothing serious.

3) About 3 weeks ago, 1 of my camp mates introduce me to a girl, he get to know her through friendster and did not meet her before so he gave me her contact no and I message her the next day. We constantly calling and smsing each other till we meet up 2 days ago, I was a little disappointed, it turns out that she wasn't my type and that doesn't stop me from being a good friends with her and I just want a break from a relationship, too tired of having one after another. When the time rip, I'll seek for another. Friend, that's lot of method to be attach, like I say try till it works, look how Jack neo become a successfully movies director yeah? Cheers!

4) ORD in exactly 3 months time, what I got to do, I already planned ahead so I am waiting patiently. Becoming a film making career is at my top priority and comes after that, get my class 3 driving license.

2007-12-04T17:15:00.000-08:00

Finally, I've been released after being confine 2x weekend which means 14 days I have to stay in camp like chalet! Reason being is party personal, only a handful of people know what is going on! sorry, I don't wish to mention it so specifically here.

Anyway, time truly flies, another 27 more days to the end of 2007. Every end of the year, I always go countdown 2 times without fail, one is Christmas and the other new year. What exactly going to take place in 2008, no one can tell.
What could it be in 2008;
1) Could it be God 2nd coming?
2) Could it be Tsunami second round?
3) Could it be one of my family member pass away?
4) Could it be I pass away?
5) Could it be a war broke out in Singapore?

So many question and yet no answer! My friends and buddy, life is filled with sorrow and excitement, don't be despair over things which you failed to achieve. Try till it works, there is always sunshine after rain. Let's live life to the fullest yeah? Cheers!

I have planned ahead! Time to find a career and back to school, this is what I'm going to do. During my block leave on 19th dec, I'm going to make a short film of my own project as my portfolio which my friend will going to be involve. Stay tuned, I'll post here once it's done.

Time is short...

2007-11-17T10:11:00.001-08:00

Actually it was a grand celebration and a mass of people were to attend my birthday dinner held at Marina South on Friday but due to some of them were unable to make it as they got something on in the last minute.
Hereby I would like to give you a special thanks to Jonathan, Jia Liang, Iqbal and Nicole for attending my birthday dinner at pizza hut location at AMK for a mini celebration instead.

Time is near, I got to progress fast on my way in becoming a film maker, I would like to make my own movies when I got my video cam on my next pay and then take it as my own portfolio as to present it to the school of films in Lasalle.sia College of the arts. But on the other hand, I can film it and participate in some contest to win some prize or maybe show it to my friends. I have prepare a script, storyboard and some of my friend had already been appoint by me to be involve in my project. It's time to put aside everything and let's get it started!!

Happy Birthday!

2007-11-15T23:28:00.000-08:00

Wow! I'm officially 21 years old now and which mean I'm stepping into adult stage already. I declare independent...

A big thank you to weiqi, zhihao, rishi and ronald for splashing water at me for celebrating my birthday in camp. Haha! you guys create some joy in me. But I feel even more fun when I was bathing halfway and you guys again try to attack me with more pail of water this time but I manage to counter your attack by equipping myself with a shampoo bottle. Sorry to make you guys shower again after I splash the shampoo foam onto you.

Special thanks to those who wishes me;

Jazlyn Chew
Xinlan
Germaine
Sweetie Eileen
Camp mates
Family

The Marina South steamboat dinner has come to its failure as most of my friend were unable to make it in the end, they cancel with me in the last minute as due to their work OT or even duties in camp. But it's ok, no worries! I understand your situation and it was not your fault totally. Perhaps we can have some gathering again one of these days?

Congratulation to Mervin for successfully passing his class 2B test, you are officially one of our biker in the future and wait till you get your bike, I'll meet you on the road.

Well, I can see most of my friend who is single are now in a relationship happily enjoying with his/her partner, people like Mervin, he's a brother to me, we spend time happily together, when I book out I straight away go and find him and when his school dismiss, he come and find me too but the world has change, can see that you are busy with your stuff and I shall not disturb you any further. Wish you and your girl ever lasting, hey! don't feel bad please, I'm going to be busy as well, my ORD is drawing near and it's time for me to find a stable job and concentrate on my career. My ambitious is to be a film maker and till now I still haven't made any movies of my own yet. Gonna make one of these days!

Confirmation

2007-11-14T03:22:00.001-08:00

Event: Mine 21st Birthday
Time: 6pm
When: 16th Nov 2007 (Friday)
Where: Marina MRT Station

List of confirmation;

Mervin
*Galvin
Tammy
Zhiyao
Rong qin
*Yong Heng
Iqbal
*Jamal
Weijian
Weiqi
Zhihao
Kavin
*Girl Girl
Bryce
Ming Yuan
(Anyone want to add on)

*yet to be confirm

Those who I wish they go but they can't;

Jasper (Overseas training, excusable)
John (D & D, excusable)
Jean (Undisclosed)

It gonna be an exciting event! Those who are closer to me had made the effort and celebrate my birthday for me. Bros, let's talk about the golden days of our school time and our past!

Birthday cancel...

2007-11-10T02:13:00.000-08:00

I'm now officially declare Friday (16th Nov) steamboat dinner at Marina South cancel! Reason being is party personal, I'm being charge for posting complains and misuse of my unit name in the forum. I'm not certain what type of punishment was given to me when I book in but I am quite confirm that I won't be booking out next week, thus, I'll be celebrating my 21st birthday in camp.

Went to St. James Power House last night with one of my army friend, I asked him to go because it been a long time since my last trip there, nearly 10 months. So I ride my bike to Bugis where my friend stayed and picked him up, we headed to Harbourfront then.
It was truly an disappointing outing ever, firstly the music wasn't very nice, they played a constant techno which we hear during the 90s. The dance floor, there are many obstacle in between and the crowd there is very well organised, you can walk smoothly from one end to the other without asking people to give way. Most of the people there were quite old, either early 30s or late just because the legal age to enter is 21 to guys and girls I'm not too sure.
We left around 3.45am as my friend kept crying and making a lot of noises like a baby asking for milk, saying that he is bored and wanted to leave. After a while, I fulfill his wish and took our leave. As we are hungry, we headed to Dhoby Ghuat Kopitiam for our supper and I parked my bike at a nearby office building.
What disappointed me was after our meal, we were on our way to the carpark and then it starts to rain heavily. Like this few days, the rain won't stop till the next day, without any hesitation, my friend and I hail a taxi and headed home. I leave my bike there and collect it the following day.

Then in the afternoon, I meet up with a lady regarding some MLM thing at Toa Payoh, upon reaching the place, she led me to her office and introduce all the facility to me and also her working colleague. She bring 3 of her colleague with her just to convince me to join her company but to her disappointment, I rejected it indirectly saying that I need some time to consider and discuss it with my parents. The 3 of her friend who I think were the pretty and quite presentable on their dress code and she thought I'll be convince just because of their beauty? She think I'll fall for her trap? I'm sorry, sad to say that this don't works on me. Once I dislike one thing and totally had no feelings for it, I'll rejected it.

Misery...

2007-11-07T10:16:00.000-08:00

There's something I really don't know whether I should remain my natural self or should I become a bad person.
Things I had been frustrating all about was God, He rules the world for this I understand, I have been attending services weekly and every now and there I pay attention to Him and even seek for His help during my difficulties times. He failed to solve my case, the case which involves fairness. In the end, I was being confine in camp while the rest of the people get to book out, all because I ride my bike to camp, I confine with the period from 2nd - 4th Nov on weekend and most of the time I was all alone without anyone to talk to. Moreover I wasn't the only one who ride bike and unfortunate I was being caught. What is the world coming to? Having God or not is still the same after being punish for they think is right! I have no say.

Then, with my transport that provides me with fast and comfort motorbike, I hate to have it all by myself, I shared it with anyone who willing to be my closer friend, even he/she is out with me, I'm willing to drive them home safe and sound and if they want to experience what is motorcycle feeling is, I'm also willingly to let them try. Even if being caught, I'll be the sacrificer. But it just seems that being someone close friend doesn't benefit much, I have been used by all my friend around me. Thought I don't expect them to treat me the way I treat them, just let me feel they will be there when I need them especially when I'm emotionally down or need someone to hang out with me. What is it to be when I needed my gf by my side and yet she wasn't there? Eagerly to meet her and show that I care and miss her during her absence but she simply don't care. And where is all my friend gone to when they are either in a relationship or doesn't feel like going out with me? Is it wrong treating someone too nice? Why is being a nice guy end up in a losing stage? Why is it praising and paying attention to God when I desperately needed Him to fight for my case and lift my confinement but ultimately I was being confine? What have all this comes to me at one go and being pressure so heavily whereby there's no one else to turns to?

Not happy!

2007-10-26T18:56:00.000-07:00

This week has been a worst week for me, unlucky not to mention. Last Sunday(21st Oct) at around 9pm when I book in, I ride my bike to camp and my commander just happen to be the guard 3IC and open the gate for me, he was those quiet type who doesn't like to talk much, so he stare at me when I ride past him and after that I saw him holding a phone talking to somebody and I suspect something goes wrong.
After unpacking my stuff, I was being confront by my other commander from 2SG and above and they threaten to charge me but I feel I ain't wrong, now is the higher authority allow the entire battalion to ride bike in and I wonder why only my company disallow us to ride in. To those who don't understand what's going on, the example is imagine your father allows you to go downstairs to buy something from a provision shop but your elder brother disallow you, he set his own rules and expect you to abide.
So I not happy together with the rest of the biker, we come forward and protest, we went in to officer office and talk, whatever the outcome, we die die won't accept the punishment.

Outing

2007-10-21T01:20:00.000-07:00

I'm going to celebrate my 21st birthday at Marina Bay for a steamboat dinner cum pub at Changi Village, like I intend to open a chalet but was unable to do so as it had already fully booked so I rather choose something else instead. As 21 years old is a mean of stepping into a adult stage and would no longer a teenager, you are to answerable to the society of what your mistakes are. So hereby I would like to invite anyone who is interested regardless race, language or religion.

Date: 16th Nov 2007 (Friday)
Time: Undisclosed
Venue: Marina Bay MRT

Those who have confirm;

Rong Qin
Yong Heng
Zhiyao
Mervin
Galvin
Girl Girl
Florence

No gifts is require as your presence is already my present. Thanks! :D

birthday!

2007-10-20T10:32:00.000-07:00

Approximately 3 more weeks to my 21st birthday, which mean stepping into adulthood very soon and more stress is await for me to handle. I wonder what Christ would gave me on that beautiful day of mine? I have intend to open a chalet and invite all my closer friends but I heard that it was too late as it has already fully booked. Well I guess I'll just organize a steamboat dinner instead, currently having the idea of going to a pub at Changi Village.

Nothing much happen today till in the afternoon, I went to meet up with my girl girl at her void deck and chit chat till 2 hours. I'll wait for you until you finish your supp paper next sat and we shall go and have fun, play photo hunt, pool, movies, puzzle bobble, eat good food and many more exciting programme lining up for you sweetie. Well, I really can't wait till I shift house to buangkok the next summer and at that time, you'll be helping me out and also stay overnight at my new place, new bed yeah?

I've started playing video games since at the very young age and that moment, idea start flowing through my mind and imagine that I'm a warrior equipping with a sword, go around slaughtering and butchering enemies that came in my way. I decided to start a story of my own and write it down in a piece of paper. It's just for my own hobby perhaps.

It's rather demoralizing and affecting my mood greatly when I ride bike halfway through, the weather start to change, a blue sky with clear clouds turn dark, a strong wind blew and the water droplets came pouring down. Especially when I dress nicely to an outing and I got drenched in the end, spoiled my day! Well, I can't go on like this forever, all I want to achieve now was to earn myself a class 3 license and drive with comfortably that provides a shelter without the fear of being touched by the water.

tiring...

2007-10-19T08:40:00.000-07:00

This week has been a tough want for me, like I who hadn't pass my SOC yet so all I have to endure was to do more physical training, running here and there. It's been rather misery. Well, have I got any choice? Guess that's life.
Now I got a things that is rather smoothen my life a single bit which is, my bunk has a TV set which is about 12 inch or less which share 14 people. I get to watch the local drama and some Hollywood movies, there was this show which they did a survey on how and why local girls prefer Caucasians guys than local guys? Some girl say they are humorous, good at wooing, rich, tall and charming which I tell myself that is quite true. Well, local guys is losing out, come on! Buck up!
There is one article showing that a 19 year old lady who is happily married to a Caucasian guy and now had a 2 children. Wow, congratulate to them and may happiness be with them. Cheers!
How do they get to know these western people? One simply answer, club and pub.

Eileen Dear, there's something which I really think you should put in some effort in our relationship. I feel that I'm putting in the most effort and make you in love but I just simply can't felt the love from you. Well, the way I read your blog, you didn't mention about me and you name me in your friend as "James"?

I consult with my friend and there goes,

Chris: I think you are in a rush of a relationship James, I'm sure you don't even know her very well before asking her to be your girlfriend? what's more about her character I'm certain you don't even understand? isn't your mistakes which made you don't feel love from her and often quarrel over trivial matters?

Me: Yes Chris but --

Patrick: Break la...Nah Bei, Singapore so many girl scare cannot find meh? you wan ah lian also got. Find someone who spend your money and don't even know you one month earn how much only? She think you what? Prime Minister ar? 1 month earn 10k meh?

Chris: Patrick you got a point there but I would greatly appreciate if your tone was a little polite. A relationship works sweet and smooth when both put in effort and not only one.

Me: I'll be sure she would understand if she grew up a little older and understand what I'll been through. Moreover, my relationship with her is just only the beginning which we started it off about 1 month ago. Because she was a homely girl who only listen to her parent advice but not her friend, is parents going to teach their son/daughter the wrong thing? I doubt so!

Patrick: ask her sat come out ar, cannot! ask her sun come out ar also cannot! You say her parent don't let, is excuse or what? where got parent keep their daughter at home so often wan? Prison si bo? or excuse? Think properly la bro! Knn, people go out with other guy behind your back you also lan lan cried in front of lim pei. This girl only want your money...ask her go die.

Me: I'll see how it goes! I shall give this relationship some time to develop and be patient with her, if it fails again! Then Pat, I guess you are right! I'm with you!

story

2007-10-14T01:34:00.000-07:00

Finally, I got to watch my favorite movies, "Resident Evil Extinction" at J8 yesterday. Well, the show was slightly reach at the average stage because there were talking more than action and in order to understand what's going on, you got to listen extremely careful.
The action of the show paints a rainbow onto the picture, I mean the style of how the main character decimated the zombies, swapping different weapons to kills and all lots of high flying action. Wow! Fantastic!

Next, I meet up with Jonathan for another round of Movies late in the night as I was unable to sleep and would like to spend the night outside rather than staying at home playing video games. The show is "Day watch", it was pathetic, I don't even understand what the show is showing about and of course many more of 3D graphics and very unrealistic. Whilst on the show, the entire theater wasn't really a lot of people and there came two pretty young ladies sitting next to me and I was curious, was it such a coincidence they purchase a Movies ticket that bought us sit together well I mean there are plenty of seat around and they can freely choose wherever they want to. Well perhaps...hmm, haha!
Anyway, Thanks Jon for that helmet! It was awesome.

On Saturday (13.10.07), I went to a friend chalet held at Paris Ris Costa Sand Resort, actually I don't really know this friend as we never talk before but we did see each other a couple of times a few years ago while I was still in high school.
She was celebrating her 21st birthday and of course there are packed with people who I think it was her friend/relative. She became more gorgeous and mature, well, when I approach her to pass her the gift, I felt my heart was burning, could be overwhelm by her sweet voice. Well, she kept holding on to my arm and give a pat on me every moment when I talk to her. Haha!
There are something which I did really make me worried which is I brought a glass cup as a gifts for her, wrapped nicely with a birthday wrapper and things I forget to do was to tear off the price tag. Damn! I wonder how would she feel when she see it. I have done something terrible! Sigh~

....

2007-10-12T07:37:00.000-07:00

Aaaarrrrgggghhhh! I feel like learning driving, any kind soul willing to lent me their vehicle to play around? Please tag me!

pain

2007-10-11T09:17:00.000-07:00

Forgive: Yes!
Forget: No!

After being hurt of what happen yesterday, It teaches me not to be so serious this time round, the pain is too much for me to bear after being betrayed by someone you love so much. Having sleepless night and foul mood, I have been too faithful and honest to her and yet cruelty and vile things struck me, it was my worst nightmare ever. Can she hear my cried? What have I done to deserve this?

Sad

2007-10-11T03:45:00.000-07:00

I don't know whether to feel angry or sad? What exactly happen really pains me a lot, like a knife stabbing onto my heart. My mind went wild and a total lost of concentration to do anything.
My gf told me on sms that she was meeting her friend on Wednesday, I assume it was a girl so I don't bother to ask where she go and who she meet, the truth was only discovered a day later when she say she was meeting a guy on a one to one date at Movies. I don't know what exactly take place during the outing, I properly won't dare imagine the worst, expecting sitting in a dark place with only a dim light when everyone wasn't notice about you. Things can be happen, I totally couldn't accept the pain. Sigh, perhaps this make me another phobia of a relationship and wouldn't dare be serious again. I mean imagine someone you love deeply and all of a sudden he/she betrayed you by meeting an opposite gender for a one on one date. That's ridiculous! I'll been putting in all effort trying to make things right for her and this I get in return.
Well, maybe Mervin is right about this, all the girls are the same, betray, liar etc...
What should I do?
Be serious again and give her another chance?
Be less serious and hold grudges against her?
Break?

Dear, all I want to say is I'm truly hurt!

words....

2007-10-05T19:08:00.000-07:00

5 months, 151 days to what? TO ORD! Guess I finally realize why do people want to finish army asap it's because SAF simply invade all of our freedom and disallow what we want to do especially in my unit.
Because of SAF, till now I still haven't pass my basic theory and had been cancel twice already, one in May and the other in August. SAF, if weren't because of you I think I now already waiting for TP liao, you make me cannot progress fast.
I swear I won't fight atec stage 2 which held on Jan 2008, I had already promise myself. I think I had enough of these outfield, route march and many more. It's pretty unfair when I doing those tough mission like carry 30 over kg on my back and walk like 20 over km while all my friend was at service side like doing admin stuff as a clerk, 8 - 5 job. Now, it's time to put a full stop there yeah? Cheers.

Sweetie, I understand that you cried a lot when we quarrel but I hope you get things right when I voice out things which I'm not unhappy about. I had been in this situation for the past 2 ex already like quarreling non-stop and say those words which hurt one another so I guess I'm already use to it these shits. No matter how strong the wind blows and how hot the fire burns, our relationship still as strong as a elephant skin yeah? Together, we are still one unity 4EVER! Love ya...

Bike!

2007-10-01T20:45:00.000-07:00

I got my defensive riding cert, my license and my bike, all I going to do is to ride in to camp. S2 allow me to ride in and I don't see why you OC and encik disallow but I tell you I'm going to ride in even with or without your approval, get that right? I'm not that kind of person who you can easily mess up with. And I'll ask all biker in my company to tag along side with me. BIKE RULZ!
I blame you for not sending me to driving course despite I ask for it! And now, I see the light, I carried 30 over kg behind my back and do a route march for like more than 20km, what if I have slip disc? Aren't you all SAF going to pay? In return, I'll do everything in my own way!
You don't let me be driver then I be biker then!!!

Happening

2007-09-29T18:14:00.000-07:00

This morning I went for my defensive riding course at SSDC from 8.30am - 1pm, what is the purpose of attending the course is just only 1 simple answer which is to gain entry to ride in to camp. That course teaches you on upgrading your riding skills and how to react when a vehicle brake suddenly in front of you. Whilst on the practical, we draw some class 2b bike and try out for a few round to warm ourself up, that bike was too small and slow maybe because I was use to it my own big bike liao, but I was amazed that I still got the skills to do figuring 8, narrow plank, crank course and etc.
After everything has completed, we receive a certificate at the end of the course and that granted me a permission to ride in to camp next week.

Then I went to Eileen void deck at Paris Ris to return her brother T-shirt and also gave her a little soft toys which I catch it for her in the Arcade at Lot 1 Shopping Centre. It was a hamster and pink in colour, we went on chit chatting till 3pm plus then I complain to her saying that I'm thirsty. Dear, you were so sweet enough to take the effort to go up and fetch me a packet of mango juice. I like it very much, thank you!

After meeting up with her, I went to find Mervin and had lunch with him at a coffee shop near his place then Galvin (Mervin twins brother) tags in. He say that he had passed his lesson 3 and then schedule to take his lesson 4 next week in his bike license. Mervin and I went to Orchard Taka to look for his gf after that while Galvin join us a bit later as he got something to do.

Shall cut short, nothing special at Orchard till Mervin quarrel with his gf at Far East,
"though I understand that you are afraid to lose your gf and expected that she might run away with another guy one day when you are enlisted into army next year, I just want to tell you that love cannot be force, even if she want to leave you for another guy then let her be. As long as she's happy and comfortable being with someone she love then respect it. No point confronting that guy cursing and swearing. Each of Individual got their freedom to choose."

Life

2007-09-22T01:44:00.000-07:00

Last night I went to have a drink with a friend at a coffee shop below his block, I'm not in a mood and thus I drink otherwise I don't. Yesterday my feeling was indescribable, it was sort of extremely angry and to the extend if people were saying cold jokes on you, your fist will fly to his face any moment. There's something bad happen on me and I don't wish to explain it in precise, please pardon me!
After that, I went to order an $11 rojak with the twins, my mood wasn't good so I went on eating and eating till there is no tomorrow then the next day, I develop a bad sore throat, a cough and a slight fever. Too much of curry perhaps.

Eileen Dear, I understand that relationship were bound to have countless of quarrel regardless over trivial or huge issue, I'm sorry that I made you cried, you were too emotional and I didn't realize that. But I believe after each quarrel, our relationship is bond to be even more stronger and understand each other more. Don't worry okay, we'll stay strong and everlasting, you are my type of girl I just want to shout it out loud. Your cute voice, your sweet smile, your sparking beautiful eyes really match to my expectation of a girl.

I truly envy on those people who had been posted as a driver in NS, I mean their schedule was smooth, a very relax vocation, no need to sweat during training and ultimately receive a free license at the end of the day. Just wondering why am I not the lucky want? If I were to get a class 3, I'll have to undergo a long and tiring stage and not to mention a huge sum of $$$!

Fed up!

2007-09-21T06:24:00.000-07:00

I just simply don't understand why do all common parents disallowed their children to ride a bike? I mean if you ride behind your parents back, I got nothing to say about that but as for my eileen, she was an obedient type of girl and I 'm indeed proud of that. Being a good girl is harmless and in fact it deserve others respect too.
She listen to her parent by not riding with me, I respect it and also got nothing to say about that but I did concern that I would have to folk extra money for cab fare just to send her home. I would have pay for my own petrol fee than paying for some uncle who I don't really know. That's my concern, anyway, I'm a professional rider, don't flame me for being proud, I go through numerous of training and even a higher level moreover I got an 2 years of experience, I understand the road situation and was aware of what I'm doing.

Verse

2007-09-19T18:26:00.000-07:00

Well, today got something to blog liao. HAHA.

Just now, i received Xinyan's sms.

XY: Eileen, as i was thinking about you, this verse came and i believe God is telling you something thru this verse. Proverbs 3:5-6
Me: woah..so honoured that you are thinking about me..okie..tks..i will go and find the verse in the bible...(=

So just now went to find the verse in my bible. And i found. Here it goes:

Proverbs 3:5-6

" Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. "

And 28th September, meet Xinyan for lunch!!! And at the same time, can have girls' talk for many hours. HAHA!!

And this morning, my kor kor gave me a verse - Mark 11:22
Here its goes:

So Jesus answered and said to them. " Have faith in God. For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ' Be removed and be cast into the sea, " and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that your Father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your trespasses. "

updated by James's girlfriend

outing

2007-09-17T21:01:00.000-07:00

Saturday (15 August 2007)

On Saturday, my dearier came and find me. Then went to watch Ratatouille at Cineleisure. And waited for arrival of the bus, quite long. Then we took cab to Cineleisure. When dearier said Cineleisure to the taxi driver. Guess what? He brought us to Simei Mrt there. Then after that, dearier asked him, why you stopped? Then he said already reached ler. Then after that, dearie said is at Orchard, not Simei. Then after that, he drove us to Orchard there. Then dearie started to said foul words. When i heard him said that, i felt quite shocked cause didn't expected that he say foul words in front of me. After that, when we reached there, then went to PastaMania. After that, went to neoprint shop, but then there's a lot of people using the machines. So we waited for them to finish taking. While waiting, he started to scold foul words again. But waited too long, we decided to go and buy movie tickets first. And the movies started at 6pm. After buying, went to arcade, to play photohunt (i think). But then got people played, so waited for them. End up, never play. Haa. Then we walked around the mall. At the same time, also waiting for his friend and his girlfriend to come. But then they haven't come yet. So went to play photohunt at level 9, (i think). After playing, then went back to arcade to play photohunt again. This time round, no one playing. We played around 5 plus, after that, went to watch movies. The movies really awesome!! Haa. After the show, saw his friend and his girlfriend outside the shopping mall. Then i waited for him another side while he talking to his friend. Then after that, his friend's girlfriend came and approached me. And both of us have a nice chat. But then, that time i quite shy. Hee. Then after that, we took cab back to Pasir Ris. We sat down at my void deck chatting till 10pm.

Sunday (16 August 2007)

Woke up around 10 plus. Then after that, went to my grandparent house, as today is my grandmother's birthday. Then we proceed to Park Royal Hotel & Resorts for lunch. And my cousins, my brother and i making some Ice-Kachang. Quite fun eh?? LOL...Then after that around 2 plus, we left. After reached home, kinda boring liao. At night, went to meet up my dearie. But then, my staying area raining quite heavily. When i waiting for lift, then he smsed me that not to come down first. After that, he called me, and asked me can come down. When i went down, then he's not at the void deck. Then i asked him, where he is? you fool me is it? Then he said he didn't. Then after that, he ultimately appeared liao. Then he asked me to go over, as he wants to bring me somewhere else. Then after that, i saw candles on the floor, as he told me that he wants to make my name, but end up, can't. Then he gave the Mashimaro to me. Haa. That's cute. And I like it a lot. Tks dearie. Hee. Then after that, his shirt was wet quite badly due to the rain. Then after that, went to take clean shirt to him before he caught a cold. I took my brother's shirt, and let him wear. Look likes my brother's shirt, he can wore. Hee. Then after that, we chit chat for about three hours or more.

To dearie:

Sorry eh, i mistaken you that you fooled me as you asked me to come down and meet you. Hee. I really touched when i saw the candles on the floor but then can't write as it melt. Don't fall sick okie? Seriously, what you did for me, i really very touched and even its raining very heavily, you still come and meet me. So sweet of you. Hee.

From,
your dear

updated James's girlfriend

Sweetie..

2007-09-13T00:15:00.000-07:00

Book out today for medical appointment at 8.30am then rush to Alexandra hospital for check up.
The doctor told me that it was pulse that causes my arse to bleed and not internal bleeding so I kind of relieve when I heard what he say.

Then I proceed on to my sweetie void deck at Paris Ris, I manage to reach there on time but took approximately 5 minutes to look for sweetie home. Hmp, Paris Ris is so huge and never did I think of ringing up my friend who stay there and ask for direction. So many times I never accomplish things at the right time.
We chit chat for about an hour or more under her block, I find her really cute and sweet and thus I name her as "sweetie" awesome as she. Eileen the sweetie was my favorite girl I ever met. I'll NEVER EVER LEAVE HER!
Saturday will be our first outing and I cannot wait to take a snapshot of us together...

List

2007-09-01T02:30:00.000-07:00

My mood had been affected misery bad by my good friend! I have been wishing he could get his own bike soon so we don't have to worry about getting a transport home late in the night. Why is it so? He made uncountable attempt trying to pass his TP and get his class 2B license but guess something seem stopping him, He added.
Knowing that he wants to be my biker kakis, and that shall be in addition to my number 5 biker friend. We will rule the road! I will surely help you push out your KR from the workshop.

Here are the list of those available at various type of outing;

Biker

Jamal
Iqbal
Zack
Weijian
*Mervin

Movies

Yu fen
BJ
John

Shopping

Yu fen
Mervin
Zhiyao
Rong Qin
Galvin
Jean
Bryce
Hui Yun

Lan Gaming

BJ
John
Zijian
Stanley

Pub/Clubbing

Zhi Hao
Weiqi
Galvin
Rishi

New rebirth

2007-08-30T14:16:00.000-07:00

I can't really adapt into a Catholic faith, those mention about Virgin Mary and I believe she's just a human like all of us and I'm uncertain why they prioritize over her.
I'm a friend of Jesus so I belong to a Church, does anyone want to invite me to his/her Church? No hope Church please!
It's time for a new rebirth huh....

Figure this out,
I'm a....
NL
NL
NF person. (It's largely concern me)

AHM

2007-08-28T20:37:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday I went for 21km run at AHM (Army Half Marathon), book in on Saturday at 7pm just to have 7 hours of sleep (order by the higher authority in my camp) then wake up at 2am just to gather our whole battalion.
Wait and wait and wait, 5.45am we started the run, almost 1/4 of all Singaporean were there running together, quite an fun experience because it's inspired you to continue running there are some elderly people also, they can constantly run and if you down there walking, it's rather a shameful if you know what I mean...
There are some event like 12km Man's Open and Woman's Open, plenty of young ladies there, I do admire some of them as they have the stamina to keep on running and when I really cannot take it, I'll just do a slow jog.
Manage to complete the run in 2 hour and 40 minutes, get a finisher medal at the end but failed to achieve a gold medal which is to finish before 2 hour. Quite miserable but still I enjoy the run. :D

I got a week Attend C as due to my internal bleeding in my arse, so the doctor at the Alexandra Hospital gave me a rest at home as to recover from that illness. I got my another appointment on the 10th Sept, was unsure what am I going to undergo next.

"September coming and that down to 5 more months to ORD!"

Sian man! There is a girl who I like a lot got a bf already and you know what? She just got attach only a few days ago! Her impression on me is not bad either, If I were to make the first move early, who knows I might have win her over.

2007-08-25T22:14:00.000-07:00

Let me begin with some portfolio which I did a couple of days ago at a carpark near my friend's place. That helmet on the ground was my favourite, I bought it from a friend for just $20 and you know what it didn't sell in Singapore! Believe it or not, it's all up to you. But anyway, that helmet is only available in Thailand and the brand is called "Index"

2007-08-25T22:12:00.000-07:00

On my left is my close friend "Mervin", he is my photographer for my portfolio, :D.

2007-08-25T22:02:00.000-07:00

My Tattoo

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