Tuesday, February 28, 2006
~ 10:06 PM ~
I had a dreams in life since I was in secondary 3 which is to become a Movies Director, my passion for Movies started when I watch a film, "The eye". Then slowly, I beginning to watch many asian and western films, friends' got nothing better to do at home so they ask me out for Movies, day by day I then become a Movies buff.
In the late 2003, Movies from Hollywood organise courses in Singapore held at Suntec City Convention Hall, I was so excited as my dreams was about to come true, I eagerly wanting to take up courses as it offer "Film production", "Film directing", "Graphics motion picture", "Film editing" and too many to name. Most of the course are above $400, I don't such money for that so I approach my family members to offer me money to take up the course and eventually they did, It was a 2 weeks course and I take up "Film production", manage to learn a lot about Movies making stuff, sad to say, basically it was all theory and not practical. But I find learning isn't enough for me as 2 weeks is very short period.
The following year, I enrol myself in a private arts institutions, "Lasalle.sia College of the arts", it was a foundation year which teaches basic art making, painting, sculpture making, drawing but that doesn't interest me at all, all those stuff which had to be done on first year and then get to choose the course you want on the second year, I didn't know in the beginning as I assume when I enrol in the school, instantly I could choose the course I wanted. I didn't put in enough effort for the first year, when during group project, I wasn't that cooperative, not to mention I was slacking whilst my groupmate is doing it. Haha, feel a little regret now and I could imagine my classmate doesn't like to associate with me.
Something is missing through out the entire of my life which is God, I tell everyone I'm a Christian and when they come to ask me about Christianity stuff, I can't answer them or I utterly words which is untrue. I didn't pay attention to God, never go church and never touch the bible even a single page, can say that I'm no different from being a non-Christian. When I was not with God, God is also not with me. I felt so lonely during the days in Lasalle, I barely smile when talk to people. In school, I hang around with surface of people and everyday stick to the same group. Goes to and back from school, always alone. At the end of first year, a letter send to me saying that I failed my art theory by just only a couple of marks to the passing grade and also say that I couldn't progress to the second year. Nervously, I seek advice from all my friend whether to repeat all over again the first year and spend 3k or drop out from the school and go army. Many ask me to repeat but I feel what's the purpose, I do not want to waste my parents money so after advice by my friend, I decided to drop out. After facing so many obstacle and despression which nearly killed my last breath and die, I decided to follow God and ask Him to help me lead my life into a better one.
I like acting, I even take part in Mediacorp assignment as an extras before. I remember a scence whereby I was being cast as a policeman and give chase to a main lead "Lee nangxin" in the show of "Missing 20 days" at the slope near Orchard Mrt, wasn't sure when are they going to broadcast. The director then ask me to shouted "Police" in chinese and then run pass the camera as it's wants to focus their shoot on me. People surrounded us and watch me perform free watch, Haha! The memory was unforgettable, truly love the day.
Not only the show, I play many different role in many difference shows such as waiter, clubber, nurse, audience, passer-by, detective, student. Work there for half a year as a temporary part time job.
