Thursday, February 16, 2006
~ 10:37 PM ~
I just purchase 2 vcds from a shop at Northpoint Shopping Centre, there are "Kingdom Of Heaven" a religion war between Christians & Muslims and "Fanastic 4" more on computer graphics and action pack. Wanted to buy them very long time ago and finally I got them, got films to watch already, feeling so glad. The total price of the two Vcds was $24.80, and I paid $25. I didn't realize I was been short change for $0.10 whilst on my way home.
Next, I wanted to buy "The Exorcism of Emily Rose", it's a Christianity woman who has been possess by the evil spirit and God trying His utmost to save her. Looks interesting, gonna buy!
A couple of weeks ago, in fact a month ago, I was in the Church hearing sermon preach by Jasmine Poon, She says that, "God created us because He wants to relate with us." After hearing this sentences, something flash across my mind that I must made God proud of me. After all, He made me, gave me life and created me normal instead of less fortunate people or handicap, I should be thankful enough.
Approximately 2 and a half weeks more to go for officially enlistment to NS (National Service), can't wait for it because I feel to slacking enough at home and quite sick of being civilian, wondering how's life in army and also wondering who is going to miss me. Haha! But anyway, after going to NS, I wants to stop contacting with the outside world forever and ever. Shall bring army as my 2nd home.
Actually I'm quite a loner, not a long of people will know, deep inside my heart, no one understands. Have confess to a girl who I like quite deeply, everytime I saw a pretty babe in the street, I immediately think of her and focus that she's my dream girl, the most perfect and beautiful partner of mine. Then instantly she replied my sms exclamining that, "I don't want to give you false hope and don't waste your time on me." Sigh, how many people is going to reject me I wonder? It is indeed true that "ai ren shi tong kua and bei ai shi xin fu" (Loving someone is suffering while being love is fortunate). But I think I'm destiny to lead this sorrowful world myself, I'll carry this burden and depression alone. Seems like girls wants a relationship is much more easier than guys. Haha, had the intention of seeking for a gay Church. Everytime I get to know a girl too close, understand her so much and always thought that I stand a chance upon her but to my misery, she only treat me as close friend and nothing more, everytime tio reject or hurt! The feelings is so sucks. Hai, can be a gay then be lor, no point being straight when people keep rejecting you. Next time don't get too close with girls', just Hi and Bye friends perhaps?
