Thursday, February 02, 2006
~ 8:46 AM ~
There are a lot of things which I'm going to voice out right here in my blogger, this is the place where I pour out my life event which contain depression & joy. Firstly, I receive a phone call today from my Malay good friend "Iqbal" claiming that he is going to buy a bike with his own savings, I'm very proud of him as he is hard working, be willing to work any kind of job to earn money, buy such a expensive machinery transport with his own money. Haha, unlike me, more than 80% is paid by my family. At least I do admit that sometimes I'm not reliable of myself but at most circumstances I am. It would be good that Iqbal has a bike now so that we can go in a group biker and conquer the road. :D
My next stories...
I consider myself as half Catholic and half Christian as due to fact that I converted into Christianity from Buddhist in the mid of millienum, and have been Churchless for more than a year, so after that my friend who is a catholic brought me to the Church in between our home, attend a few times and find it was great, cool and nice as on the whole and it suits to my satisfication, the service took only an hour, and I mean just nice an hour or sometimes even less than that. In the service, there are holy com, offering, sing praise and sermon. Attended Catholic Churches for a few months and all out of blue, a girl in the street do a survey with me, so I was kind enough to spare a few minutes and do it, that survey was mean to bring people to Churches, a good thing either. After taking the survey, she asked me to go Church which held at Cuppage Plaza directed opposite Somerset MRT, I don't mind going as I'm a Christian, so after attended a few times there, the people at the Church asking me constantly to come weekly so I did, my feeling is like a girl, soft hearted, wants to reject people but don't dare, have to hint people one, scare to hurt people feelings also.
Now, I'm planning to leave my present Church which is "Hope Church", I don't really like the way they plan events or even organise. Sometime always last minute cancel and cancel already didn't inform us, must wait until I go and ask them then I was inform. What kind of organisation is this? or should I say, what kind of attitude is the organiser, somehow feel so worked up. And also, what kind of Christian Church is that, contain so many youth? Aren't they specifically spell it out that bgr is involved indirectly among them? Look at my Church in Nexus, my institue in DI (Diploma Institution) has formed one couple already and another is about to form. What is this? No wonder people around the world has bad impression on Christianity, my doubt has finally solve now. Look at CHC (City Harvest Church), it is the most popular Church in Singapore, look at the number of youth, I guess it occupied more than 1/4 of all local teenagers' population. BGR I guess? No sense of being faithful follower of Christ. Whilst on the other hand, Catholic Church is much more peaceful compare to other Churches, It doesn't contain youth, in the sense of gathering whole bunch of youth, please God and ultimately it lead into bgr world. They don't do such thing compare to Christianity. Really, bringing a shame to their own belief, what if a new believer knows about this? Sigh, I really don't feel like going to any form of Christian Church anymore...
I still believe Jesus is true God, perhaps now I intend to return to my old self again, worship God solo. Do whatever things myself, I still prefer my past lifestyle.
