Thursday, December 13, 2007
~ 5:05 PM ~
Let me carry on with my previous entry...
Like many people had this question linger in their mind, where is God when they needed Him so much? Especially a few months back whereby the innocent Korean held hostage at Afghanistan, what is God thinking? 2 of innocent blood has been shed, that's outrageous!
There is another point which I want to highlight, as for my situation; I had many friends, almost close to a million but those closer to me such as my buddy is only a handful want, but those handful mostly had been attach and they spend most of their time on girlfriend. As the chinese say, Zhong She Qing You...
My friendship with my closer friend is beginning to drift apart and slowly I'm getting lesser friend. Mon- Fri in camp, Sat - Sun stay at home....
There are some ways to make friend such as going to clubbing/pubbing and socialize with the opposite gender but I choose not to do it as it wasn't healthy, I'm not shy to approach people and is even happier to be approach so I think I'm doing the right things and do God is currently unhappy with what I've done? These unhealthy lifestyle like smoking, consuming of alcohol, betting of football, gambling etc I don't even touch them! What is He truly want? I think I'm currently lacking now is friends and love. All I have been seeking for a longterm in life hadn't been fulfill, I have been suffering from this for quite a long time!
What is there to be remain as a Christian when I sincerely trusted God as my personal savior and a special friend of mine whereby He can't really solve my problem?
I have the thoughts of mending the bad ways, returning to my previous lifestyle which I use to be a chiongster, using vulgarities and rude to people. I am confuse at a moment, don't wish to say any further. My apology, shall continue in my next post.
Sign off....
