I just got my computer upgrade over a week ago, spent over $400+ consisting of a new motherboard, graphics card, dvd rom and power supply. Manage to play my favourite games, "Devil May Cry 3" on pc, supposely to be a ps2 games. All because of army, I have less time for leisure.

Sweetie ann was preparing her end of year examination on 29th sep and her last paper shall be on 16 oct, she came out with an idea on organising a badminton games with me after her exams and without even hesitating for a second, I agrees! I even come out with an idea of a forfeit on whoever loses. Anyone interested in joining me please feel free to let me know. :D

Time flies, October is just ahead with one more week remaining from September, I have been serving ns for nearly 7 months. 1 year and 5 months more to go before I could officially get my ass out from the army.

I really don't understand why must parents/guradians treated their children so strict that they even conquering their freedom? Take my dearie ann for instance, she's a foreign who came from myanmar a year ago, as a foreign, she can't buy a flat here and had no choice but to rent it from someone, that particular someone is just an owner of that flat, as per instruction given to that someone by ann parents, they disapprove of my girl going out with not only myself but her friends as well, close her at home and bark her to revise for her upcoming end of year examinations.
I wants to make things clear, as each individual human being truly deserves a freedom... damn olderly people!

Members of the Hope Church, I receive a message a couple of days ago from Jonathan, Jeyaraj and Abigail sincerely invited me to your church celebration located at Singapore expo. I knew your main purpose is to bring me back to Hope, as you guys the higher rank in church already understands my reason so I wish you people could stop asking me to return. I don't like going to church because an devil like me don't deserve this kind of holy place. I lie, I steal, I criticize people.

On friday evening straight after I book out, one of my platoonmates inform us that he got 4 free tickets available for the zouk admission, I was excited and quickly went home to get change. It was fabulous as it was my first time going to zouk, asusal I get to lay my hands on ladies while they dance, this is part of the culture perhaps. Several ladies I have been laying my hands on was rather horny to me. This is an truly an exciting event, if there have been another chance of going to night club, I won't hesitate to go, be it tired or not!

I had my computer upgrade yesterday at sim lim square with my friend carrying the CPU on his hand while I ride a bike there. The appromiaxtely cost of upgrade is $400 plus an additional $10 of their service charge.

Went to kbox at toa payoh central together with mervin and my ex-stead Jasslyn at 10.30pm last night, while we were travelling down the road, all of a sudden the traffic light turns to amber and there was a red light camera station there, I took the immediate action to jam brake from 70km/h, the wheel of the vehicles goes, "EEEeeee" it was loud and I could smell of a burning coming from the bike. Although my friend and I fell from the bike but fortunately we didn't hurt ourself.

After singing till our lungs out, my friend and I were dead beat enough to stay overnight at my ex-stead house, she agrees and allow us to use one of her bedroom of her rental flat in toa payoh. After claiming my bike at the multi-storey carpark at the nearby HDB, 3 cops in a vehicle approached us and begin question us. I was quite panic as I did not display my probation plate which expires in Nov, couldn't find any excuses to tame the police and ultimately my friend and I being check our body by the cops including our belongings. They took down our identity, contacts number and our whereabouts. The entire thing last for about 15 mins as the police constantly questioning us. What I was thinking is to quickly get the hell out from the police...

My dearie handphone has spoilt a several weeks ago and thus unable to type a message on her keypad and when I called, she can't even hear what I speaks. Her guidance was strict enough for disallowing her to use their house phone and this makes an inconvenient cause for us to communicate. Damn!

Currently, I'm having a course at Pasir Laba camp on ATGM (Anti Tank Guided Missiles) basically, its more on destroying enemies tank during war time. Had a week pass and this is my first book out from the new environment. I don't really like studying on something which I'm not interesting in, and when I learn is all about having a big weapons by your side and your friend loaded a missile for you, go through the systems of their drill and what must you do after firing off the missile. It always lecture, revising and study by heart! Man, this is truly boring. But what was the advantage is you don't have to do area cleaning such as sweep the floor and clean the toilets, the servant there do all the shits for you and less physical trainning, this is what I'm happy in. The course duration is 1 month, since 1 week has passed, 3 more weeks to go. How am I going to endur something in which I hated it sincerely from the bottom of my heart?

Manage to get Joey handphone no after she receive my message in friendster. Oh, for your info, Joey is previously from hope church. I had a thought of asking her to go clubbing since she likes to dance so much, I shall seal the opportunity to dance with her.

I realize one thing when I always listen to my favourite worship songs of, "To the ends of the earth" from hillsongs, Jesus Christ was filled with compassion and He speaks in a soft tone to those who believe in Him. I feel I have been kept constantly called back by Him but at times I ignore, the problematic was He asked to return to Hope Church but I don't want, I can goes to any church I choose but why Hope, certainly He had the reasons behind it. What makes me refuse was I had created too many trouble a couple of months ago and even brought a several men with me to confront stanley and jonathan of trivial issue as regards of Jeans. Why am I keep thinking of Hope Church when I listen to hillsongs? Can they forget entirely when I return? Words just don't prove anything, even when they say they truly forget but how can I believe?
I'm confuse once again, too long I have been living without a church, without a daily bread. Can I really goes to a church and stay there permanently? I know my faith isn't strong and easily tempted but my love for Christ is everlasting, I truly and sincerely believe that He is the only God that exist and who I can rely on.

I fall sick last tuesday - thursday (29th august - 31st august 2006) in camp, I develop a fever of 38.4 degree which includes cough, flu, sore throat. But I don't feel weak and I had no idea on what's going on with me, I feel sick but I still have the energy to active my mind. I begin to slowly recover after consuming the medicine given by the MO (Medical Officer), what they gave me was truly disappointing, a "panadol"!
On friday night, I book out from mandai hill camp after the soccer event, I went home and sleep after finishing unpacking my stuff, I had an fabulous dreams that night dreaming of Jesus Christ, what I dream was; I step into His kingdom together with my brother, he committed a grave sins and had to be seen by God, I followed my brother down to Hell from 100th storey to the first. There wasn't anyone there, totally silent and the place was beautiful. Upon reaching our destination, we found a statue of Jesus Christ reaching out both his hands in the air, my brother ran to Him and fell to his feet begging for forgiveness. He was hugging the statue while I look upon, my brother exclaimed, "FORGIVE ME JESUS CHRIST FOR WHATEVER I HAD DONE." The statue of Jesus Christ begin to move and the hands of Him lay to the heads of my brother and touch him. He was suppose to be send to hell and had the scroll to sentence him but Christ destroyed it.
My brother cried aloud, too thankful to Him, Christ ultimately gave him a room in his kingdom and allow me to stay together with him.

Make me realize that God loves me too much to gave me this dreams, I wanted to cry when I woke up from my bed and also, I understand that when I fall sick in camp, He was the one who heals me. I slowly to understand you Jesus, please give me time to come back to you, I wish to comes home to Hope but afraid that my brothers and sisters there holding grudges against me. Give me time Lord, I tried to find a new habitat.