This week has been a worst week for me, unlucky not to mention. Last Sunday(21st Oct) at around 9pm when I book in, I ride my bike to camp and my commander just happen to be the guard 3IC and open the gate for me, he was those quiet type who doesn't like to talk much, so he stare at me when I ride past him and after that I saw him holding a phone talking to somebody and I suspect something goes wrong.
After unpacking my stuff, I was being confront by my other commander from 2SG and above and they threaten to charge me but I feel I ain't wrong, now is the higher authority allow the entire battalion to ride bike in and I wonder why only my company disallow us to ride in. To those who don't understand what's going on, the example is imagine your father allows you to go downstairs to buy something from a provision shop but your elder brother disallow you, he set his own rules and expect you to abide.
So I not happy together with the rest of the biker, we come forward and protest, we went in to officer office and talk, whatever the outcome, we die die won't accept the punishment.

I'm going to celebrate my 21st birthday at Marina Bay for a steamboat dinner cum pub at Changi Village, like I intend to open a chalet but was unable to do so as it had already fully booked so I rather choose something else instead. As 21 years old is a mean of stepping into a adult stage and would no longer a teenager, you are to answerable to the society of what your mistakes are. So hereby I would like to invite anyone who is interested regardless race, language or religion.

Date: 16th Nov 2007 (Friday)
Time: Undisclosed
Venue: Marina Bay MRT

Those who have confirm;

Rong Qin
Yong Heng
Zhiyao
Mervin
Galvin
Girl Girl
Florence


No gifts is require as your presence is already my present. Thanks! :D

Approximately 3 more weeks to my 21st birthday, which mean stepping into adulthood very soon and more stress is await for me to handle. I wonder what Christ would gave me on that beautiful day of mine? I have intend to open a chalet and invite all my closer friends but I heard that it was too late as it has already fully booked. Well I guess I'll just organize a steamboat dinner instead, currently having the idea of going to a pub at Changi Village.

Nothing much happen today till in the afternoon, I went to meet up with my girl girl at her void deck and chit chat till 2 hours. I'll wait for you until you finish your supp paper next sat and we shall go and have fun, play photo hunt, pool, movies, puzzle bobble, eat good food and many more exciting programme lining up for you sweetie. Well, I really can't wait till I shift house to buangkok the next summer and at that time, you'll be helping me out and also stay overnight at my new place, new bed yeah?

I've started playing video games since at the very young age and that moment, idea start flowing through my mind and imagine that I'm a warrior equipping with a sword, go around slaughtering and butchering enemies that came in my way. I decided to start a story of my own and write it down in a piece of paper. It's just for my own hobby perhaps.

It's rather demoralizing and affecting my mood greatly when I ride bike halfway through, the weather start to change, a blue sky with clear clouds turn dark, a strong wind blew and the water droplets came pouring down. Especially when I dress nicely to an outing and I got drenched in the end, spoiled my day! Well, I can't go on like this forever, all I want to achieve now was to earn myself a class 3 license and drive with comfortably that provides a shelter without the fear of being touched by the water.

This week has been a tough want for me, like I who hadn't pass my SOC yet so all I have to endure was to do more physical training, running here and there. It's been rather misery. Well, have I got any choice? Guess that's life.
Now I got a things that is rather smoothen my life a single bit which is, my bunk has a TV set which is about 12 inch or less which share 14 people. I get to watch the local drama and some Hollywood movies, there was this show which they did a survey on how and why local girls prefer Caucasians guys than local guys? Some girl say they are humorous, good at wooing, rich, tall and charming which I tell myself that is quite true. Well, local guys is losing out, come on! Buck up!
There is one article showing that a 19 year old lady who is happily married to a Caucasian guy and now had a 2 children. Wow, congratulate to them and may happiness be with them. Cheers!
How do they get to know these western people? One simply answer, club and pub.

Eileen Dear, there's something which I really think you should put in some effort in our relationship. I feel that I'm putting in the most effort and make you in love but I just simply can't felt the love from you. Well, the way I read your blog, you didn't mention about me and you name me in your friend as "James"?

I consult with my friend and there goes,

Chris: I think you are in a rush of a relationship James, I'm sure you don't even know her very well before asking her to be your girlfriend? what's more about her character I'm certain you don't even understand? isn't your mistakes which made you don't feel love from her and often quarrel over trivial matters?

Me: Yes Chris but --

Patrick: Break la...Nah Bei, Singapore so many girl scare cannot find meh? you wan ah lian also got. Find someone who spend your money and don't even know you one month earn how much only? She think you what? Prime Minister ar? 1 month earn 10k meh?

Chris: Patrick you got a point there but I would greatly appreciate if your tone was a little polite. A relationship works sweet and smooth when both put in effort and not only one.

Me: I'll be sure she would understand if she grew up a little older and understand what I'll been through. Moreover, my relationship with her is just only the beginning which we started it off about 1 month ago. Because she was a homely girl who only listen to her parent advice but not her friend, is parents going to teach their son/daughter the wrong thing? I doubt so!

Patrick: ask her sat come out ar, cannot! ask her sun come out ar also cannot! You say her parent don't let, is excuse or what? where got parent keep their daughter at home so often wan? Prison si bo? or excuse? Think properly la bro! Knn, people go out with other guy behind your back you also lan lan cried in front of lim pei. This girl only want your money...ask her go die.

Me: I'll see how it goes! I shall give this relationship some time to develop and be patient with her, if it fails again! Then Pat, I guess you are right! I'm with you!

Finally, I got to watch my favorite movies, "Resident Evil Extinction" at J8 yesterday. Well, the show was slightly reach at the average stage because there were talking more than action and in order to understand what's going on, you got to listen extremely careful.
The action of the show paints a rainbow onto the picture, I mean the style of how the main character decimated the zombies, swapping different weapons to kills and all lots of high flying action. Wow! Fantastic!

Next, I meet up with Jonathan for another round of Movies late in the night as I was unable to sleep and would like to spend the night outside rather than staying at home playing video games. The show is "Day watch", it was pathetic, I don't even understand what the show is showing about and of course many more of 3D graphics and very unrealistic. Whilst on the show, the entire theater wasn't really a lot of people and there came two pretty young ladies sitting next to me and I was curious, was it such a coincidence they purchase a Movies ticket that bought us sit together well I mean there are plenty of seat around and they can freely choose wherever they want to. Well perhaps...hmm, haha!
Anyway, Thanks Jon for that helmet! It was awesome.

On Saturday (13.10.07), I went to a friend chalet held at Paris Ris Costa Sand Resort, actually I don't really know this friend as we never talk before but we did see each other a couple of times a few years ago while I was still in high school.
She was celebrating her 21st birthday and of course there are packed with people who I think it was her friend/relative. She became more gorgeous and mature, well, when I approach her to pass her the gift, I felt my heart was burning, could be overwhelm by her sweet voice. Well, she kept holding on to my arm and give a pat on me every moment when I talk to her. Haha!
There are something which I did really make me worried which is I brought a glass cup as a gifts for her, wrapped nicely with a birthday wrapper and things I forget to do was to tear off the price tag. Damn! I wonder how would she feel when she see it. I have done something terrible! Sigh~

Aaaarrrrgggghhhh! I feel like learning driving, any kind soul willing to lent me their vehicle to play around? Please tag me!

Forgive: Yes!
Forget: No!

After being hurt of what happen yesterday, It teaches me not to be so serious this time round, the pain is too much for me to bear after being betrayed by someone you love so much. Having sleepless night and foul mood, I have been too faithful and honest to her and yet cruelty and vile things struck me, it was my worst nightmare ever. Can she hear my cried? What have I done to deserve this?

I don't know whether to feel angry or sad? What exactly happen really pains me a lot, like a knife stabbing onto my heart. My mind went wild and a total lost of concentration to do anything.
My gf told me on sms that she was meeting her friend on Wednesday, I assume it was a girl so I don't bother to ask where she go and who she meet, the truth was only discovered a day later when she say she was meeting a guy on a one to one date at Movies. I don't know what exactly take place during the outing, I properly won't dare imagine the worst, expecting sitting in a dark place with only a dim light when everyone wasn't notice about you. Things can be happen, I totally couldn't accept the pain. Sigh, perhaps this make me another phobia of a relationship and wouldn't dare be serious again. I mean imagine someone you love deeply and all of a sudden he/she betrayed you by meeting an opposite gender for a one on one date. That's ridiculous! I'll been putting in all effort trying to make things right for her and this I get in return.
Well, maybe Mervin is right about this, all the girls are the same, betray, liar etc...
What should I do?
Be serious again and give her another chance?
Be less serious and hold grudges against her?
Break?

Dear, all I want to say is I'm truly hurt!

5 months, 151 days to what? TO ORD! Guess I finally realize why do people want to finish army asap it's because SAF simply invade all of our freedom and disallow what we want to do especially in my unit.
Because of SAF, till now I still haven't pass my basic theory and had been cancel twice already, one in May and the other in August. SAF, if weren't because of you I think I now already waiting for TP liao, you make me cannot progress fast.
I swear I won't fight atec stage 2 which held on Jan 2008, I had already promise myself. I think I had enough of these outfield, route march and many more. It's pretty unfair when I doing those tough mission like carry 30 over kg on my back and walk like 20 over km while all my friend was at service side like doing admin stuff as a clerk, 8 - 5 job. Now, it's time to put a full stop there yeah? Cheers.

Sweetie, I understand that you cried a lot when we quarrel but I hope you get things right when I voice out things which I'm not unhappy about. I had been in this situation for the past 2 ex already like quarreling non-stop and say those words which hurt one another so I guess I'm already use to it these shits. No matter how strong the wind blows and how hot the fire burns, our relationship still as strong as a elephant skin yeah? Together, we are still one unity 4EVER! Love ya...

I got my defensive riding cert, my license and my bike, all I going to do is to ride in to camp. S2 allow me to ride in and I don't see why you OC and encik disallow but I tell you I'm going to ride in even with or without your approval, get that right? I'm not that kind of person who you can easily mess up with. And I'll ask all biker in my company to tag along side with me. BIKE RULZ!
I blame you for not sending me to driving course despite I ask for it! And now, I see the light, I carried 30 over kg behind my back and do a route march for like more than 20km, what if I have slip disc? Aren't you all SAF going to pay? In return, I'll do everything in my own way!
You don't let me be driver then I be biker then!!!