GOOD BYE 2007!! HELLO 2008!!

3 more days till the end of 2007, what have I done this year? I still serving NS and my days in 2007 mostly all outfield, PT training, this and that, basically nothing much.

70 more days before I can officially go free...

Atec stage 2 is coming in 2 weeks time, siao liao, sure super xiong! outfield 4 days 3 night, How to endure sia? Yet again, if God here answering my prayer, cancel this mission...but I truly doubt it's impossible la but at least make it not very xiong lor, don't make us route march until like 20 over km, sure die lei...lim bei also got father mother to take care and bright future lei. Sian ar, lim bei go through so many outfield for the past 1 year and 10 months liao still come some more. Sian sia, why lim bei infantry, why lim bei not driver or clerk sia....God damn! kan nah, lim bei no point being a Christian liao, pray and pray, still come out nothing, let me sleep in the jungle whereby got beds everywhere...king coil lim bei favourite. haha...

Is God powerful?
Is God capable of solving His people problem?
Is God answering His people prayer all the time?
Do God understand His people feeling?

NO!!!

My question;
Is riding a motorcycle a sin?

So why am I being confine and charge just because I ride a motorcycle to camp? and why am I being the unlucky want to be arrow and punish for nothing? Some people only know my concern, not everyone here knows what exactly had happen...
If you wish to find out what's going on, please refer to my previous entry about a month ago.

Today, a friend of mine brought me to Hope Church held at Suntec city, reason being for attending is partly because of this upcoming Christmas event and also giving face to my friend who invited me, and without further will do, I ring up a few buddy of mine to be my companion. We go there, not only unwelcome by the usher who so call guard the entrance, we also being stare down by the people, looking at us from head to toe as if we were here for trouble. I don't wish to take it seriously as I know many of them from the church itself.
Then comes the most annoying part of the pro gramme, the pastor who appear in the stage talking about Jesus, talk about how great He is and how he heal the blind, heal the sick, kills the HIV for the people and makes me wonder why can't He even lift up my confinement and SOL? During that time, how I pray and crawl on my knee in front of the altar to seek help from Him and He turn a deaf ear on me? That punishment of mine is simply wasn't my mistake and was being punish just because I ride a bike to camp...

So the question is, still wanna remain as a Christian? follow the path of Jesus? Well, I even think of waging a war against Him...
Perhaps I may even picture myself as an anti-Christ....

Damn!

I just bought a video camera at sim lim square for the price of $499, it's a canon brand and is made in Japan, I trust Japan stuff as they are the inventor of the modern technology.
Well, what have I got to say...
FILM MAKING TIME!
Wow! I gonna have a chance to be a director which I get to shout, "Action & Cut."
A short film video of about 10 - 15 minutes, it's about ah beng getting into trouble.
I'll post here when it's done...
Relax and stay tune...

Let me carry on with my previous entry...
Like many people had this question linger in their mind, where is God when they needed Him so much? Especially a few months back whereby the innocent Korean held hostage at Afghanistan, what is God thinking? 2 of innocent blood has been shed, that's outrageous!

There is another point which I want to highlight, as for my situation; I had many friends, almost close to a million but those closer to me such as my buddy is only a handful want, but those handful mostly had been attach and they spend most of their time on girlfriend. As the chinese say, Zhong She Qing You...
My friendship with my closer friend is beginning to drift apart and slowly I'm getting lesser friend. Mon- Fri in camp, Sat - Sun stay at home....
There are some ways to make friend such as going to clubbing/pubbing and socialize with the opposite gender but I choose not to do it as it wasn't healthy, I'm not shy to approach people and is even happier to be approach so I think I'm doing the right things and do God is currently unhappy with what I've done? These unhealthy lifestyle like smoking, consuming of alcohol, betting of football, gambling etc I don't even touch them! What is He truly want? I think I'm currently lacking now is friends and love. All I have been seeking for a longterm in life hadn't been fulfill, I have been suffering from this for quite a long time!
What is there to be remain as a Christian when I sincerely trusted God as my personal savior and a special friend of mine whereby He can't really solve my problem?
I have the thoughts of mending the bad ways, returning to my previous lifestyle which I use to be a chiongster, using vulgarities and rude to people. I am confuse at a moment, don't wish to say any further. My apology, shall continue in my next post.

Sign off....

When I about to goes to bed 1 night, I keep thinking a lot of things and couldn't sleep. I took out my phone and begin to browse through my phone book and visualize of who is the luckiest army personnel on earth. When I even think of that, I begin to felt that I'm the unluckiest person in this world. Why am I so? It is because majority of my friend who posted as a driver, admin clerk, RP, store man, police and I'm the only one who posted as rifleman who everyday outfield, route march, SOC training, PT and more on chiong suai. Imagine carrying 10 over kg behind your back and walk like more than 20 over km. You see who can take it? I guarantee to those who take my place sure buay tahan. Count yourself fortunate that you don't have to go outfield and sleep in the jungle, you got a comfortable bed in camp and at home. May I know got which people xiong more than me? Except for those in commandos and sof, I'm certain I'm xiong than OCS and sispec. No doubt about that, go brunei and taiwan, climb the hill, climb the mountain, sleep in the jungle then suddenly rain heavily, shirt and pants wet then kena mud liao still have to wear. Xiong until wan to cry, wan to fall out also kena fark by your superior. What is this sia?
And I believe who responsible for my hardship and pain is none other than God himself, it's all plan by him, our way of life and programme. Does he even think of how I feel and am I treated the same way as my friend?

1) It's my first time wearing no.4 (army uniform) riding my bike home from camp, the feeling is a bit weird cause I'm not really use to it and wearing boots to change gear is a little uncomfortable too, the boots too thick and when you shift to gear 1, it automatically shift to 2.

2) Sigh, I think I couldn't hear clearly on my left ear, the right ear is louder than left, my friend think that it might be either infection or some dirt blockage. I'm going to visit a doctor tomorrow morning at Yishun polyclinic. Hope it's nothing serious.

3) About 3 weeks ago, 1 of my camp mates introduce me to a girl, he get to know her through friendster and did not meet her before so he gave me her contact no and I message her the next day. We constantly calling and smsing each other till we meet up 2 days ago, I was a little disappointed, it turns out that she wasn't my type and that doesn't stop me from being a good friends with her and I just want a break from a relationship, too tired of having one after another. When the time rip, I'll seek for another. Friend, that's lot of method to be attach, like I say try till it works, look how Jack neo become a successfully movies director yeah? Cheers!

4) ORD in exactly 3 months time, what I got to do, I already planned ahead so I am waiting patiently. Becoming a film making career is at my top priority and comes after that, get my class 3 driving license.

Finally, I've been released after being confine 2x weekend which means 14 days I have to stay in camp like chalet! Reason being is party personal, only a handful of people know what is going on! sorry, I don't wish to mention it so specifically here.

Anyway, time truly flies, another 27 more days to the end of 2007. Every end of the year, I always go countdown 2 times without fail, one is Christmas and the other new year. What exactly going to take place in 2008, no one can tell.
What could it be in 2008;
1) Could it be God 2nd coming?
2) Could it be Tsunami second round?
3) Could it be one of my family member pass away?
4) Could it be I pass away?
5) Could it be a war broke out in Singapore?

So many question and yet no answer! My friends and buddy, life is filled with sorrow and excitement, don't be despair over things which you failed to achieve. Try till it works, there is always sunshine after rain. Let's live life to the fullest yeah? Cheers!

I have planned ahead! Time to find a career and back to school, this is what I'm going to do. During my block leave on 19th dec, I'm going to make a short film of my own project as my portfolio which my friend will going to be involve. Stay tuned, I'll post here once it's done.